Healing Sexual Wounds

8 January 2005

Comments from Angela

For me the beauty of this reading lies in the fuller understanding given of female sexuality as well as some wonderful, gentle insights on what may heal sexual wounds (including those from other incarnations). Especially useful is the teaching that healing occurs most effectively through the same medium as the pain was inflicted in the first place (in other words, through the body if it was a body wound) and that healing may be gently and marvellously assisted by imagination and play. Perhaps this knowledge evolves into a new form of treatment..

The reading contains insights on:
• Enthusiasm and the experiencing of gifts
• The washing machine of life – why things get topsy-turvy
• Feeling ‘old’
• A longing for innocence
• Numbness and coldness regarding sexuality
• The interconnectedness of female sexuality
• Locked in a cupboard of past abuse
• Sexual healing – facing the wound together
• Healing as group work
• We have to be present to heal
• Giving birth as potentially reawakening sexual memory
• Carrying wounds from other lives
• Healing through the body, not the mind
• Healing through imagination and play
• Self-healing through healing others
• Children and sexuality

Enthusiasm and the Experiencing of Gifts

Coming upon you in this way is the same for us as coming upon a young child who sits eagerly at a school desk waiting to learn everything she can. That is how we have read your enthusiasm for yourself many times in these last few months and it is just how we also read you now: sitting with eagerness, understanding that what is here to be learned is going to serve you. Thank you, dear child, for bringing such enthusiasm to all your communications with us, which are not limited to this particular space either.

You open for yourself many, many, many doors simply by being this way. Enthusiasm allows you to be here fully and, always, being fully wherever you happen to find yourself is what presents you with the most presents or gifts. There are, of course, dear child, many gifts to receive out of each and every moment. Only when - by whichever form is your most favourite - you choose to escape a moment or avoid being in one moment in whichever way, are the gifts no longer available there. So that is why enthusiasm - the way you exhibit it - is not merely something cute to watch in young children (they display it in abundance), it is also a vital quality for receiving those gifts that await you with the turning of every single moment.

We have never thanked you specifically for this before, and so it is joyful for us to remark on your enthusiasm for your learning and how that puts you so fully in so many moments of your young life. Let us also honour you with that word: ‘young’.

The Washing Machine of Life – Why Things Get Topsy-Turvy

Indeed we have seen in some moments, you have not felt young. Have you seen that? Where we have watched that the way life is being spun for you, spun, topsy-turvy, like in a washing machine, has sometimes made you feel older than you ever have. Have you seen that? Indeed it is so that life has been spinning in many ways, like a washing machine. Yet perhaps you have asked yourself at one time why washing machines spin clothes the way they do. Why is it necessary in a washing machine that clothes get turned so topsy-turvy, sometimes in such a strong way - even aggressively - turned and turned and turned?

It is because those designers who stand to make money from creating good washing machines, know that the only effective way to truly clean a garment in such a fashion is for it to be turned inside out and upside down many, many times, so that it is fully exposed to the soap and the water and the movement, which all three ensure that it is scrubbed clean. Also sometimes it is the same reason of necessity for your physical lives to be turning you inside out and upside down like that. It is perhaps not so accurate to call this a cleansing process, as would be the case with the clothing. Yet certainly we can call this a process of full exposure to that which removes the soil from you. The soil being that which is still clinging to you, which means you have not fully shaken it off from your roots or from your past.

When life shakes you around as indeed it has some few times in these last months, then you can know that what is happening is the undergoing of a process which is intended to assist you to shake off the last few bits of soil - in other words, that which you are bringing or even dragging from your past in your attempt to move into the new. You know, our dear girl, that bringing or leaping into or onto new ground necessitates that the remnants of the past be left behind. In other words, those bits of soil that yet stay with you need to be brushed off before the leap is taken fully into that new way. One of life’s ways of doing that is putting you in the washing machine. In other words, creating circumstances that seem, just as you think they are sorted out, then along comes another swirl of water and everything is upside down again, not so? Just like being in a washing machine. Not very pleasant!

Feeling 'Old'

In the beginning here we mentioned that this process has, at some moments, made you display feelings of being older than you have ever felt before. Moments where the extent of your responsibilities and cares has been quite large for you. Is that so? Many times such intensity of responsibility and care is associated with feeling older and missing, yearning, longing, for youth and innocence in yourself - the times when you were not burdened with such responsibilities and cares.

So we are seeing in you certain moments of longing to be that little girl again that somebody else takes care of. Have you seen that? And indeed it is so, as you well know, that returning to the state of little girl is often required on such a journey and, as such, often very useful to it even in the middle of the turmoil. That indeed is why you are recently understanding play as a valuable offering to adults, because you are understanding with ease something that has been difficult for humanity to understand. Humanity who has held such strong differentiators between child and adult that they have even celebrated some fictional age of 21 when supposedly the transition is made.

It is long entrenched in your culture to value adulthood. You, as we say, even celebrate it with a big party. And, as such, what is also taught if not always said is that one should be grateful and happy when the time of childhood and less responsibility is over. And yet, here you are - and most other adults were they to be so aware as you - longing back for moments of the child. Thank you for understanding that actions or thoughts that facilitate returning yourself to your childhood state are wonderful for you, especially in moments of difficulty, in times where we have said where what it feels like is that you are in a washing machine. Therefore we are here giving you great confirmation of that which you are setting out to do [starting play workshops] regarding yourself and, if you will, pulling others into the process.

[This is the] experimentation with what allows adult beings to free themselves at certain moments in their lives - wishfully in their every day - from all they have taken upon themselves as adults. Perhaps you see also now the beauty of your quest in this area in relation also to your husband for whom we have suggested less responsibility also in relation to being such a strong adult. The symmetry is not unnoticed by us. It may be for you well used. It is of no accident that you begin to play with the exact concepts or understandings that would assist him as we have already spoken.

A Longing for Innocence

More than using tools to return you to a space of freedom - creativity, high awareness and uninhibited expression (you may well use those four notions in your work if you please) it is also part of your longing to be innocent again. We are reading this indeed very strongly from you at this moment. Maybe, you can for a moment think about what that word innocent means for you and say it to us.

Doing things without shame

Yes, there is a word called purity that is sometimes strongly associated also with innocence. Purity is that state which you see so strongly in your daughters where indeed, as you have said, actions that are taken, including the thoughts, occur with no shame or self-hatred, or feelings of dirtiness at all. Yes we have seen, especially recently, a longing in you for innocence. Wanting to be so much in a place where you can be totally without shame or any other feelings of being spoiled or dirty in some way. Have you seen where or how this is so for you?

Numbness and Coldness Regarding Sexuality

Yes, recently I have been feeling very cold and numb and just without feeling sexually. But the feelings you describe are also there when I am around my father.

Yes they are, the two areas are related. May we push forward with this?

Yes, please do.

Indeed, it is the word innocence that relates for you the two areas. Coldness and numbness are results. They are, in other words, what the self will use as protection against something else, something undesirable that is felt. In other words numbness is not the first step in reaction to a certain situation. Numbness is the result of your first true, real reaction to a situation. Numbness and coldness are called upon when you do not wish to feel what you are truly feeling within that environment. Is that clear?

And so we would, as we always do and again with much love for you and with your permission, go one layer down to what lies underneath, or what may be called the reason for choosing to be numb and cold. We have mentioned to you that innocence is what you are longing for and you have told us in your own words why. We have heard from you that shame, even revulsion, also some anger - not at another, anger at self, which we have previously called self-hatred - are existing for you below or before the numbness in relation in particular to the space of your life called sexuality. Have you seen that?

The Interconnectedness of Female Sexuality

We can relate your sexuality as it exhibits itself in any moment of your life to everything else in the life also. It is not so, especially for those of you who come in as women, that sexuality stands apart in a separate compartment from the rest of life. Indeed, with women especially, sexuality and their sexual selves is woven into every single other part that they could identify as making up their lives. With men sometimes yet it is different. They are - you will no doubt have no surprise at this - less able at this stage to work with sexuality as a form of evolution than woman are able to do. We are simply showing you that the choice of a male body is also a choice to somewhat limit, at least for now, what sexuality may be for the being. Women on the other hand, as perverse or paradoxical as it may seem, are more developed in their sexual selves than men. And this is because the connection points between their sexuality and everything else with them are so strongly developed. They cannot switch their sexuality on and off without switching the rest of themselves on and off. Is that clear?

So indeed we are showing you that what may be one area of your life with a different name - sexuality - is indeed pervasive or relevant throughout. May we show you one example of how this is so?

Can I go to the toilet quickly please?

Yes.

Please note for yourself the specific moment of the body taking you out of the space. Indeed your body in this area [sexuality] has been taking you out of the space. We have shown that numbness or lack of enthusiasm, even some distaste, is a secondary reaction, one which the body will use to avoid feeling or experiencing what is underneath and so we are working there.

Yet, in the first instance, we are ideally also teaching on this notion of sexuality as much as we are concerned about bringing healing here. And that is why in the first instance we are suggesting to you that the primary or first understanding that will serve you greatly at this moment is the acceptance or understanding that your sexuality is linked intimately and strongly to all areas of your life, as you are a woman and a sensitive one at that. So it is not an area that remains behind in the bedroom when you get up in the morning and get dressed and begin your day. It is brought with you all the time. Is that clear?

Simply to use one indication of overlap or comparison between two areas to suggest to you that this is so. We remind you or take you back to the moments, those years, when you were considering yourself a cook. Those times when you were putting out into the world quite a lot, not so? Even simply in the form of food. You were putting yourself in that form into the world in a strong way, whether or not the field suited you or is something that you choose for yourself and we understand why it is not. Nevertheless, in those moments you considered yourself productive. Is that so? And creative? And you felt respected by that. Is that so? At those times of, in some respect, high productivity, creativity and respect for yourself that you experienced from the work you were doing, the sexual side of you was far more ok too. Do you see that?

Indeed we have absolutely no desire to suggest a return to cooking, you may be glad to know! It is not the door of your healing. Yet we bring up this particular commonality or relationship to show you that what a woman is doing in the external word, is related to how she is in her internal world and also within the world of her sexuality. For some time you have felt - and mentioned this to us many times - less productive than you should be. Putting out less into the world than you feel you have to give and not experiencing as much respect. There are some many paths within this situation and for now we are simply articulating one of them: there is a deep relationship between your feelings in that regard and your feelings relating to your sexual self.

So allow us to begin there simply by showing you that it will not serve you to isolate - even in simply your own mind and in how you choose to work with this - your sexuality from the rest of your life. When what is there is healed it affects everything. For women this is always so. You can notice in the lives of any woman with whom you intimately speak that the times in their lives when they are at their deepest, most creative and most alive sexually - if that continues for a certain length of time - it begins to be displayed in what the woman experiences herself as in the external world also.

So we are showing you here that by, if you wish, taking some steps to work with your sexual self, you are at the same time - as it is so beautifully interconnected - taking some of the steps you have been asking to take in other areas. Is that clear? Thank you.

Locked in a Cupboard of Past Abuse

For now, we will return to what we have shown of the feelings underneath, which the numbness is helping you not to feel. And we are also interested for your sake in why these occur now more strongly than before. It is not that they have not been there, yet something is allowing them to be more apparent to you at this time. Firstly we will - as indeed we have described to your darling of a husband - show that in this arena of sexuality it is as if you are locked in a cupboard. Can you see that? It is not fun for somebody to be locked in a cupboard. Can you imagine what you are encountering locked in a cupboard? Picture yourself as a young girl for this is where we are heading, and you are locked in a cupboard. How are you feeling there?

[She cries]

Yes, it is terrible to be there. It is dark, firstly. It is very dark, and you cannot see. And you are alone, secondly, and nobody knows. That is sometimes the worst. Nobody knows you are there and you know you are missing out on fun. You know this. You can hear that some people in another part of the house are laughing. They have not even noticed you are not there. And you want to bang the cupboard. You want to break it and you are not strong enough. That is where the self-hatred or self-anger we have mentioned comes in. You feel like it is your responsibility that you are locked in this cupboard. You are putting yourself there - that is what you are saying again and again and again. And you experience powerlessness because you can’t open the cupboard by yourself. All these things, along with great fear, exist as feelings within you. And they are horrible. The feeling of being alone, the feeling of being powerless and hating yourself for not being able to get out of this yourself, the feeling of nobody knowing what is going on with you. And that feeling also of knowing you are missing out on something good but you can’t do anything about it. That is why we have described it for you as being locked in a cupboard.

Anything else that comes up different from how we have put it?

No, it is very accurate.

Yes, we are greatly assisting with this because as we have said it is a place within you that affects everything else and also, yes, it is the available time and there is some beauty in this, to bring this…[tape turns, something lost]

Sexual Healing – Facing the Wound Together

Maybe we can also show, in line with the metaphor of the cupboard, that usually young children put themselves in the cupboard because they wish to hide from something that they don’t wish to touch them. And then, when they get locked in there they realise it is even worse being locked away than having to face that which they did not wish to face. The feelings that compound or get bigger and more frightening being inside a dark, locked cupboard do not assist you either. Even though the initial reason you have placed yourself there was under the assumption that you would be safer there hidden away than being fully exposed.

So indeed, part of what is going to assist you here is allowing yourself to come out of the cupboard to face or see or be touched by that from which you ran in the first place. You have with you [her husband] to assist you the one who will open the cupboard gently and take you out. His name in itself is healing, so you can trust him with this healing of yours. Moreover what we can tell you is that he is not what you are running from. Do you know that? It may at these moments in your life seem like that, yet that cupboard you are in is an old cupboard. It is an ancient cupboard you are locked in. You put yourself there a long, long, long time ago, before he was around.

So our second major teaching to you here is to know deeply within and for yourself that what you have been not wanting to be with, is not your husband. Maybe it gives you some relief to hear that. It also provides you with a helper, one who is adequately loving, patient and talented in healing. Please know that you cannot exit the cupboard by yourself. You have been trying for a long time, even in the moments you did not know you were there. Now you do know that you are there and we are showing that someone waits for you on the outside with great love, he knows how to open the door and he will hold your hand as you step out to face that which you put yourself in the cupboard for in the first place. Is that clear?

We Have to be Present to Heal

Much of your healing in this regard can only be done with another. We have spoken of some beauty within this and indeed there is. Right from the start of your reading we showed you that only when you are fully present in whichever space in your life, can you see and receive the gifts that are there. It is the same here. While you are locked in the cupboard it is impossible to heal and also to see what beauty this may bring for you and for others.

Healing is Group Work

So the first step for you will be to share with him about the cupboard, in other words what is going on underneath the numbness and to allow him to assist. That will be very much part of the beauty that the situation may eventually bring. You know healing is always done as a group. Whether you consider that you are healing something individual or not, the truth is that every time a human being patches up a spot so that a flower may grow there, the whole group of you also does so. And so for you to share your healing in this regard with another is to bring both him and you much closer to understanding the real nature of healing than is currently understood on this planet where it is presumed to be such an individual thing.

Already we have spoken here of how we are interested in the timing of this situation - that it should come forth for you now. There are so many reasons for this and it is not likely that you will grasp all of them for they are applicable and understandable only on other dimensions. Please know though that your sensitivity greatly serves you in that many woman who require the same healing, push this away from their awareness for many, many, many years until much damage is done and until the timing is difficult for healing. We are so grateful and honouring of you that you have sensed in your body and allowed what has been made available to you, even though what was made available to you is extremely frightening and unpleasant. Thank you for not discarding it. Thank you for facing it.

Giving Birth as Potentially Re-Awakening Sexual Memory

Also, part of the timing of this is your own experiences of body that have preceded the realisation that some healing is needed. We have already made you aware in other ways of how the process of birth is often related to re-experiencing sexual pain hidden from the mind. When you give birth naturally, you are doing so through the birth canal or the vagina. You are experiencing sensations of pain, you are experiencing muscular constriction, and you are experiencing invasion - though it is not called that, but invasion - of your vagina. When the body undergoes that she remembers all previous times that experience was real to her, which means, as you know, all the previous times in all incarnations that she has ever before given birth become available to her then and also all the previous times she has been sexually hurt come back then also.

Sexual abuse is very similar to the body - if not to the consciousness - as birth. It also involves the vagina, it involves the constriction of muscles from the great tension and fear that is experienced, it involves pain and it involves invasion of the woman’s body. So, many times, when women choose to create physical or mental reasons to avoid sex after giving birth, it is because they have recently remembered extremely unpleasant associations with sex. Is that clear?

Carrying Wounds From Other Lives

And indeed what we are suggesting to you is that there are some sexual wounds you are carrying. Please know these are not related to [your husband]. Neither are they related specifically to your father from this life, although they are related to one or two fathers from previous lives and that is why we have suggested to you right from the start that there is a deep relationship here between the feelings you feel in relation to sexuality and also the shame in relation to your father.

He is, at this time, in the position or the role or the act of the very same person who caused you the sexual harm before. Many of you walking the planet at this time have had similar such experiences of what is now commonly known as abuse or yes, rape. Yet so many, as we have already said, are asleep to this. The hurt is pushed away, the body is not allowed to remember and that is why we have so much honoured you here for allowing it to be real to you. Please know that you are allowed to experience everything which a woman who has been raped experiences. Some things do not disappear just because one life ends and you choose another body. Deep wounds are one of those things that remain life after life after life until in one life the being wakes up and suddenly she knows that she does not want to carry anymore this particular wound. And so how beautiful that you are prepared to let it go. Do you have any questions on this so far? Thank you.

Healing Through The Body, Not The Mind

Because the memory and the pain reside in your body, and not at this stage in your mind, part of the biggest healing in this regard can be for you through the body and not particularly through the mind. That is also - we can see - the frightening part, not so? Because at this point you prefer not to place your body in the sexual arena at all. Yet, we show you with grace and gentleness that it is grace and gentleness that will heal what the body experienced before as brutality and disrespect. When the body experiences the reverse of its wound in the same areas as the wound, it begins to rewrite what those cells have remembered. Is that understood?

And so, one way - a highly effective way and also with the ability to create such beauty - to begin to heal your body is to have her treated with the utmost respect and gentleness, both in areas sexual and non sexual. Also both by you, yourself - for the greatest forgiveness that is needed here is from the self. You know usually those woman who have been abused blame themselves, it is funnily enough so in almost all cases. That is where the feeling of shame, repulsion comes from. It is in relation to self.

Healing Through Imagination and Play

And so we suggest that both you and your husband begin to treat your precious body in a new way. We may suggest to you, if you can take it this far, that you pretend, the two of you, that you are bride and groom to be and that you exist at this moment within a society that does not commit sexual relationship before marriage. And so while you are deeply in love with each other, betrothed, knowing that one day your bodies will join and feeling the desire to do so, yet you cannot. And so you need to search for other ways to honour and taste each other’s bodies without sexual penetration. If you pretend so in this game and you have a make believe date of your wedding, then you will have some time together before the wedding to get to know the other’s body before penetrating sex. And this is what we would suggest because it returns you to your innocence. Do you see that?

If you suggest to him to treat you like a virgin maiden, only permitted to do certain things before marriage and not others, you begin to re-write your body’s experience of sexual love and you begin to show yourself that you are worthy of being treated as innocent and young again. Maybe you see how all we have spoken of in this reading is connected? To go back in play to a state of virginity will for both of you bring up such honour of your own and each other’s bodies that you may do this even regularly throughout your life together. There is also no more gentle way for you to heal.

We have spoken already that the healing should occur - if it is to be at its highest value - also through the same mechanism that the hurt was experienced. In other words, the body. Of course the attempt to heal your sexual hurt and shame can be made through other means. Yet the one where you will experience most pleasure and release and the chance to remove this wound from you for evermore is through the area of the body. As much as that may be the one area you do not wish to feel with at this moment. Is this clear?

It may for you turn into a game and within the game the greatest healing happens even when it is unknown. So many humans upon discovering such a wound maintain the wound by repeatedly encountering it through the mind rather than encountering it through the body. We are suggesting to you another way, a gentle way, a fun way, where you begin to re-experience yourself as desirable beyond your sexuality. Do you see that? At the moment, with so many reasons, your desirability has not been separated from your sexuality. Allowing yourselves to play such a game as we have suggested will show to both of you the beauty of your bodies even when you are not encountering them sexually.

Self-Healing by Healing Others

Furthermore, what we can suggest to you is another magnificent healer is to ensure - and truly this is for yourself as much as for them - the beautiful expression and acceptance of sexuality in your own daughters. When you allow them to be both innocent and sexual - which is in truth what they are - then also you may allow yourself to see that you can be innocent and sexual. Do you understand?

Children and sexuality

You know there is no point at which a human being becomes a sexual being. It does not happen at 4 or 8 or 12 or 21. When you are born you are already wired that way, otherwise you would only grow your sexual organs later on in the development of your body. But they are all there from the start, can you see that? Which is to indicate that sexuality is as much a part of the natural make up of human beings as is their emotional selves. You are emotional from birth and sexual from birth also.

Can I ask you a question? By asking my 3 year old to put panties on, is that taking away her freedom of expressing her sexuality?

Not always, no. Her reasons for not wearing clothes or panties are not usually sexual. When she wishes to be sexual she does other things and, interestingly, when she does express herself sexually with touching or play or questions, usually those times are not in public, correct? She knows that. She knows without being told.

We know of your reasoning behind requesting her to wear them. You see it also comes from your own fear. So simply understand that, while the request comes with some fear she will pick up the fear of course. Yet, you are already embarking on your healing in this regard, she will pick up on this too, so do not fret. If what is required for you and for her is to ask her to place them back on her body, please do so, it is not a serious limitation of her sexuality.

At this stage it causes more fear in you than anything else, correct? You may honour that. She understands. Yet examine in your life with her and also with the younger one where you could even be encouraging her to understand and experience her own sexuality. Where she may learn from you that her body is many things - it is something to jump with, something to love with, something that gets sick, something that contains much pleasure in certain parts and many, many other roles the body plays.

Your own understanding of your body in this way will be most assisted by giving that beautiful acceptance to your two girls. Any more questions on this?

Yes, also you may allow as much honesty with them as you wish. There is no particular need with these two to hide your sexual self from them. Sometimes children do experience the sexual selves of their parents as strange, or hard or frightening. Yet for your specific two girls, they are strong in this regard. [The 3 year old] is strong in her body, can you see that? There are some children who are not. There are some children who already do not inhabit their bodies at her age. She is not so. And so sharing with her in small ways such as when you bath - if it is so for your husband that he finds your body beautiful as you lie in the bath with your girls, he can say that out loud with love to you, - they will learn so much from that. Is that ok? And you will be honoured again by that also. Thank you.

Please know in advance that sometimes the greatest gentleness and love towards your body either from you or from another may bring up for you such a storm as you are hearing outside. That is simply a part of the healing, which may not be the case with you as the wound is not an extremely strong one. The release for you may also be gentle. But if the release comes with anger or violence, it is like the storm, which can be useful even within its violence. You may [extremely loud thunder outside], and mention this, it may come as such a shock and that is fine. Do you understand?

Thank you, dear princess, for being here like we have said as a small child. You are not only the mother of your girls, you are the mother at this moment of yourself. Thank you for that shift. You have no real idea how much communal healing you are creating by who you are. And now, we wish to play with you like we have suggested you play with your husband: imagining yourself as a bride to be, a young virginal maiden. Even giving yourselves other names just for your own play, will strengthen this. We wish now to also play with you like that so when you draw for us the card we will ask you before doing so - please with your great imagination - construct for yourself the feeling of yourself as virgin bride. Find in yourself, if it is there, a name, see what you are wearing and let us pretend you are talking now to a soothsayer, or some other communicator of that time, as this girl of innocence. Should we do that?

And so in the identity of this young maiden, do you yet have name?

Rose

As Rose, the excited, little bit nervous young girl who has just been asked to be married, what is it that you wish to ask the oracle?

I wish to know how I can preserve my innocence and enter into this beautiful marriage with my husband to be?

First, we will say what a fine, strong, young man. You must be the envy of all the other girls of this village. We have seen him also as a capable hunter and we can usually tell from that that his aim will be good in other ways also! That is always why girls like the men who are successful huntsmen. We also see him, at some moments, where he has a full face of hair and you know what they say about men like that - they are also strong and safe. So, firstly, your oracle wishes to congratulate you on being selected as the maiden of choice by this certain man. He has a talent for watching things closely. Huntsmen often do, it is a beautiful attribute of theirs. We have seen him watch a river for many hours to understand the movements of the fish underneath it. And so that also tells you that you have been watched by him very closely and may you revel in that knowledge. He has an observant eye and so for him to have chosen you, is to indicate the extent of your own beauty and grace.

Your question, in truth, needs no answer. You cannot help but be innocent with him for you have not other way. You have no other knowledge and so you will always act from innocence with him. You may dance for him also. This will allow your bodies to talk in preparation of when they will dance more closely. That is one way. Also in the next 40 days before you wed, take special care of your skin and your beautiful hair and all that you adorn your body with. This is not to please him, he is already well pleased, that is clear. This is to tell to your body that she is queen of all queens, and to treat her as such.

Before you leave us to run to sew on your garments we will give you one more blessing.

[She draws the Creative Expression Card]

Surely she [the girl on the card] can be seen as one who dresses herself and loves herself all the time, this fairy. She is not painting or drawing or any other of the understood means of creative expression. Her creativity rests firstly upon herself. She is creative in the way she views herself. She is creative in the way she works with her body and what she wears and how she loves herself. (End Tape)

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