Angela Deutschmann

Experience Truth

On Mastery and Marriage

18 August 2005
Comments from Angela

This is a beautiful reading that throws new light on what is available to us, spiritually, in times of difficulty, disappointment or distress. There is further confirmation that how we show up to life is just how life (as well as our angelic guidance) will show up to us as well as some new insight on how to work with earth energy. Above all, this reading gives three clear and useful pointers on working within a difficult marriage as well as working towards mastery. The other areas that are covered are:
• Life shows us the dedication that we show towards it
• Attracting angelic presence
• Allowing ourselves to be held
• The purpose of peace and human being-ness
• The honour of being human
• The assistance of spirit
• Walking our lives as if we are spiritual masters
• Light in times of darkness
• What is mastery?
• Partnership with the earth
• Working with crystals
• Water and crystals
• Working within a difficult marriage
• Discrimination vs discernment
• How to move in a new direction
• Abuse and power
• Keeping the peace vs speaking the truth

Peacefulness is the purpose of being alive. That is to suggest to you, on this very blessed day (we are saying that it is a particularly significant day for you), that being in physical form with all of its variety of challenges and difficulties, is all about the creation of peace or peacefulness.

Life Shows us the Dedication That We Show Towards It

We are so dedicated to you in this. How could we be any other way when you display such quality of dedication yourself? Here we are honoring and loving you for that. We are showing you the beauty of your dedication. It is so clear that it rings out like a particular chime of a bell, right through the universe. All of you who display dedication in this way to your own selves and your own evolution, will naturally be rewarded or gifted with the same amount of attention paid to you from life itself. So, what we are suggesting to you is that there is a very strong focus on you, on your particular energy stream, at this moment from the Universe. It is of course the truth that all of us are watching over all of you at all times, even though the accuracy of that language is not really right. Yet we will, for this time, consider it that we are watching over you. Yet there are times when, we can put it to you this way, a particular light or shine, or sound as we have said to you, becomes very attractive. It attracts to towards it much love, much attention - love and attention is the same thing, no matter what kind of attention. It attracts to it at certain moments an increased vibration, there is an increased magnetism and this is just so with you at this time.

Attracting Angelic Presence

You are profoundly bright at the moment. You are, if we could show it you to this way, like a 500 watt bulb that is shining amongst others bulbs that are shining at 60 watts. That is how we get to see you from this perspective. Naturally one’s eyes are going to be drawn first, or one’s attention is going to be drawn first to the brighter bulb, it is not possible to look at a sea of bulbs and not be attracted to the brightest. So it is just what we are saying to you now, you have at your disposal the greatest forces of the universe. You are able to work these into your life far more than you have known. It is as if, may we put it to you this way, it is as if you have at your feet, 5000 angels of high strength bowing there waiting for orders. It is almost like that. It is only a result or your own brightness, as we have said. It is not that we select which human beings we have more devotion to at any point. We do not have any such inclination to choose. It is your own shine that brings us more or less into your personal space. And at this moment you are surrounded by some forces of great strength. It is almost as if they are totally lifting you from one space to the next. You need not even take a single physical step yourself, in that sense, we are holding you fully.

Allowing Ourselves to be Held

Yet many times what we experience when human beings are being so strongly held at any point in their life, is that they are trying to clamber down and walk themselves! They are actually trying to step out of the space of being held by the cosmic realm and they are trying to do it on their own. Trying to climb out of the cot so to speak and walk on their own even though that is far more difficult. You have such experiences with your own child, where sometimes it would be far easier for her to be taken care of by another and yet she insists on doing it herself. Such is it also with you.

We have a deep understanding of the root cause of this kind of action or behaviour. We have an understanding that you are willful; it is part of being human. You take upon you will, free will. It is not the case in many other realms of existence. Yet humanity is known across the universe for its willfulness and we honour that in entirety. Yet we suggest to you that if sometimes you feel like you are being drifted along somewhere with the stream, allow it. It is not always the case that you need to step out of the flow of things to trudge on by yourself. Do you understand what we are suggesting? You are allowed to be carried. It is not an indication of irresponsibility or weakness, the fact that you are being carried places and you are not walking definitely and directionally yourself. It is not a sign of weakness. On the contrary, we have suggested to you that the only reason you are pulling towards you such magnificent angelic energy is because your light at this moment is exceptionally bright. If it were not so, we would not have available the strength to carry you around for some time. So we are asking you, if you will allow it in certain moments, simply to be carried. To allow yourself, so to speak to fall asleep in our arms, fall asleep in the arms of life. Knowing, as your small child does, that you will be totally safe when you wake up. That when you wake up there will be a meal for you, there will be a clean change of clothing, there will be someone to love you. Just the same as your daughter knows when she falls asleep herself. Knowing clearly that the world is totally right. She will not fall asleep unless she was sure of that.

We are suggesting to you that in some moments, if you can allow it for your dear self, simply rest in the arms of life. It is not the same as being irresponsible. It is not possible for you any longer to be irresponsible. There is no going back on that now. So there is no need, dear child, to ever be concerned about that aspect. Sometimes it is even very responsible to allow yourself to be fully carried. Do you understand? You will quite naturally, if you allow for this, begin to draw it to you on a physical plane. If you allow a total drifting to sleep in the arms of life, in other words a release of worry or even your own walking on a higher level, you will bring towards you wonderful physical support. It is always so, what you allow in the metaphysical plane, you will quite easily attract to you on a physical plane. There is possibly some time delay between the two, simply because the energy on your planet is of that kind of density. Yet it will always come. What you allow for yourself to experience in your inner world you will very soon experience from your outer circumstances. So we are suggesting also that this will be the trigger for you to bring into your physical, concrete everyday life, greater amounts of support, which is required. Do you see that?

The Purpose of Peace and Human Being-Ness

We are wondrously at your side at the moment, as we have said. We are doing it, in other words, with wonder. We are in wonder at your beauty and your self-growth in the midst of the storms. Our ability to be at peace is not even as developed as yours. We have suggested to you at the start of this reading that the purpose of being alive is peacefulness, in one sense. There are possibly many, many thousands purposes of being alive yet we are suggesting to you that one of them is to recreate your essential experience of self, to recreate it as totally peaceful, regardless of external influence. It is one of the great challenges of being human. We are suggesting to you with great adoration at this time that your relationship, understanding and mastery of peace is greater than ours. We do not have at our disposal external circumstances of any kind that are separate from ourselves, not even an illusion of being separate from ourselves. We do not have that opportunity here. Therefore we do not have the opportunity to create peace, as it already exists in continuum here. Your possibilities on earth are far greater than that. You have the possibility to master a kind, a quality, a depth, of peace that is beyond what you are able to do in spiritual form. In other words, the qualities and skills of God that you can have the chance to master on earth can allow you to be, as a spiritual being, more developed than you were before choosing the earth experience. Many times humanity understands it in the reverse way: that it is when you are in spirit form that you are really being grand and that when you are on earth, it is your time of being weak. Do you see that? It is many times how all of you react to yourself as humans. "I'm only human" you suggest to yourselves. Yet we are asking for you possibly to shift your awareness, your consciousness of human life. Understanding, as we have already honoured you for, that your relationships with the aspects of God which you have chosen to challenge yourself on in this life (and one of these as we have already told you, in your case, is peacefulness), may be far more profoundly developed during the experience of earth time than during what you might call spirit time, when you are not physical.

The Honour of Being Human

Allow yourself, therefore, to take great honour, even pride in just the experience of life on earth. Just exposing yourself to external conditions that seem as if they are not part of you. Just that, which is the premise of life on earth, allows a greater development of God consciousness or God energy than before. So we are loving you in this way. Smoothing over your hurts. It is as if we are, with our hands around you at this point, smoothing out the kinks. Like taking a piece of beautiful silk and running your hand over it lovingly because it is such beautiful material. Running your hand over it and smoothing out anything that is a little bit out of place, so that the material is totally soft and smooth. That is what we are doing with you while you sit here. Simply easing out some of the knots, if we could put it that way.

The Assistance of Spirit

Our bright light, the one that is being pulled towards your bright light, can assist you in manners far greater than what you request at this point. In other words, what we are suggesting to you is that you may make far greater or grander requests at this point where you are right now. You may make far grander requests for co-creating with your spirit assistance than ever before. You have at your disposal masters. It is not that we are here to manipulate or fix your physical circumstances. We are not serving you like that. Yet we are here to take your experience of your physical circumstances into realms of being that few humans have had the chance to inhabit. We will say that again. While we are not at your service in the form of being able, or even desiring, to manipulate, fix or control your physical circumstances, we are greatly able with you at this moment to shift your experience in those circumstances to a realm - or even a physical place of existence - that few human beings are able to reside in yet.

Such is the power of assistance available to you at this moment. We are suggesting to you, therefore, to use it wisely. To know - and you may picture this in whichever way is useful to you - that at this moment you are walking surrounded by masterful guidance. Light of an exceptionally bright nature is following you around simply, as we have said, by magnetic pull coming from your own shining. It is possible while in this state to make magnificent forays or travels into new awareness of self. We are suggesting that you acknowledge the masters that are with you at this time, at the very least their energy that is strongly attracted and attached to you. We are suggesting you acknowledge it, even picture it if you like, you may give it a name and a face if it suits you, we have no problem with that. Acknowledge it in the first place and begin to do what you would imagine the masters would do. You have it available to you now to incorporate that kind of energy into your own energy. We are aware of the esoteric nature of our discussion of this day, in particular as you have requested some essentially practical work, yet we are unable to give you practical suggestions without explaining to you what you have available at this time. We were dying to tell you that! Dying to tell you the kind of light that is pulled towards you at this time. So that you may love it. So you may love being that way, surrounded by so much love. That is the first thing we suggest is the acknowledgement of it. Already that increases the pull and the presence.

Walking our Lives as if we are Spiritual Masters

The second suggestion we are making in terms of working with the particular guidance available to you now, is to start walking the earth, walking your life, as if you were a spiritual master. You are indeed one such being yet your life on earth does not reflect it. It is the case with all of you here. However at this point in time - and thank you also to your child for the profound beauty she holds inside you, which is also part of what is pulling to you such grand beings of light, they are finding you and her irresistible - what you may decide to do with their presence is to begin to bring them in to the way you walk in your life. So you may take each step as a master.

Light in Times of Darkness

You are given this magnificent time of light, which is yours regardless of the circumstances of your life. May we tell you at this moment, many beings on your planet have experienced this moment of light while in prison. It is not perhaps what you might expect. People expect that when you are held by such deep light, you need to be surrounded by nature and loving people and organic food. We are saying to you we are with you regardless of the circumstances of your life and, indeed, in the history of humanity usually this kind of light around a single being has come at exactly the moment of their most challenge. Some of your greatest leaders have been held by us in this way that you are now while they were imprisoned. While the circumstances of their life were at their most limited, and trying and deprived, they found themselves so blessed in a halo the way you are now. It is as if you are held deeply in a wrapping of light, masterful light. So we are saying to you, you find yourself magnificently blessed despite the existence of the world around you as it is now.

You are far more than the circumstances of your life. Your light is expanding so far into the universe that you have called to your side grand beings. How many times should we say this? You are at a point of magnificence. The outer experiences of your life – in just the same way as those of you who have done this within prison - fade away. At least their effect on you fades away when you can know with awareness that you are in a portal of light. It is not the case for the duration of human life. You cannot exist in this kind of light for very long, your body will not cope yet. You are becoming more and more used to holding such high quality of energy yet at this stage you will not sustain it for more than perhaps some months. And that is very long. Your specie is not yet at the point of physical existence in the physical selves that you can maintain such surrounding of energy for very long. We are simply suggesting to you, you are in a totally beautiful state. One with tremendous power to forever change the way you place yourself in the world.

What is Mastery?

We are suggesting to you once again to walk back into your life as a master. Simply hold that awareness with you. It will not increase your arrogance. Masters are not arrogant. It will not take you out of your life. The masters that have lived on earth have lived amongst the poor, they have lived in amongst squalor and, as we have said, in prison. It is not that they are removed from life. No, you can be more fully in the gritty details of your life yet with greater effect and with miraculous ability. That is the third quality of masterhood.

We have said that it is a state of non-arrogance, we have said it is a state of full involvement, and we are thirdly suggesting it is a state of miracle. There is no other way to say it. The masters are all adept at working with physical circumstances, to create what was not there before or to remove what was, whatever is the need. You are primed to begin working on the miraculous. It is not so much a manipulation of matter that is important. Important miracles are not the ones recorded as such. Turning water into wine is the least of the work that the master of the Christ did here. He would not consider it one of his greatest miracles. However, shifting the consciousness of the children he would consider one of his greatest miracles. The wine was an incidental. But the ability - and it is miraculous – to love a child so that their consciousness shifts within one life is a miracle. That is just one example; you are by no means confined to working miracles with your children. You are broadly able to influence the world, by no means simply through the two children. Yet we are just suggesting that the miraculous is not always evident in physical matter. It is often consciousness shift or even environmental shift.

Partnership With the Earth

We have some words for you on environment. We have a great need at this moment in the development of the planet to develop people’s awareness and sensitivity to the earth. It is for too long now that you all have existed on the planet understanding it as a dead thing that you all simply walk [upon]. There is a requirement for those of you who are seeking to take this existence, this existence of humanity, into the light to become far more in touch with the qualities of the earth. She is calling. She is calling for partnership. Partnership, that is all. Not to be saved. She has no need to be saved, the earth, she is such a being of magnificence that you could not save her or ruin her. Yet she is calling for partnership with those of you who are being masterful. So we are suggesting to you through the very means you have alighted upon, in the form of crystal or mineral work, we are suggesting to you to continue to forge a partnership with the earth.

Working with Crystals

Consider it rather in that way, than considering [that there is] some kind of magic in the crystal. Instead, consider that you are developing a partnership with the beautiful energy or entity of earth through using her crystals. Her crystals are her gifs. So understand it that way - that through the gifts, her stones, you are developing a beautiful partnership with mother earth. A partnership that serves her and serves the humans. So if you can hold that understanding in terms of your attraction to this particular form of healing, if you can understand it in that sense as a developing partnership, then you will be effective and you will also not be clinging to the crystals.

You do not require a particular kind of thing to have a relationship with mother earth. It is not that if your crystals were taken away from you or destroyed tomorrow it would limit your ability to partner with her. So we are suggesting that while you use them with love and freely and well, we are also reminding you that you are not in any way needing of them. Yet take some forward steps in this regard, increasing evermore your trust in your own knowledge of mother earth. You will do very well to take any steps available to you to cement your partnership with the energy of mother earth. All masters have done that, and you, as we have said, are working within the energy of master at this moment, very profoundly. Use the assistance that is currently available to you; use it to inspire your work with your crystals. There is a lot more to discover about crystalline energy than is currently understood on the plant. There are great and far more uses for crystalline energy than you are currently knowing and putting into effect on earth. So we ask you to trust this base you are in at the moment, this base of mastery and begin to bring the assistance that is around you, intuitively into what you do with your understanding of the crystalline force.

Water and Crystals

You will find also that it is very useful to bring water into your work with crystals. They are so dependant on each other, crystalline energy and water. They are very, very symmetrical. It is almost just the same as a marriage. Let us put it this way: the one is soft and the other hard, at least in certain forms. In other forms, the one is hard and the other soft. But they have a great love of each other. [There is] great balance between them, the crystalline force and the particular molecular energy of water. So that is the one suggestion we will give, to begin experimenting with your healing in this regards: experiment with water also. You might find some very interesting results.

Working Within a Difficult Marriage

Our gift to you regarding your marriage at this moment is threefold. We have, in other words, three specific cards for you to select. In a moment we will ask you to place them face down on the table. Thank you. Please turn the one in the centre. It is the central one. The card is Beauty. Our firm, or straight or central or pivotal – the strong line down the middle - suggestion to you regarding your experiences within your own intimate relationship at this moment have to do very much with discrimination.

Discrimination vs. Discernment

We will work more with you on this notion further down the line. Yet, we are asking you to become acutely aware of the discriminatory work or energy that has existed in you and in your consciousness. Discrimination is nothing more evil than simply a consciousness of separation. To discriminate between two things in the very essential understanding of it, is to presume they are separate things. One cannot dissociate unless one holds the two or three things as different or separate from each other. Yet it is a profound learning, this understanding of discrimination, because it is such an obvious experience of earthly life. It is so obvious to all of you that you are not he same as what you sit upon or what you eat or the person you sleep next to. That is what you are faced with in physical reality all the time. So the test, one of the supreme tests - and that is also why you have chosen this particular country to exist in for some years - is to work so well within an understanding of union that discrimination is no longer possible. That you do not separate yourself from any one thing.
However, what is perfectly acceptable on this earth and in truth the only way you can live well, is to place yourself in environments that assist you in growing. You are totally entitled to be discerning. It is not that just because you see all things are one in essence that you need to not put into practice your ability to choose. No. So we are suggesting to you to become acutely aware of any discrimination tendencies you have in all spheres, including within your marriage. Marriage is one of the greatest ways to play out the understanding of discrimination, or judgment, or separation. Yet, is not only there that you will find yourself discriminating or putting some things above others in terms of that. So we suggest beginning seeking out those parts of your life, simply seeing them and releasing them and then you will find once you have done that, a surge of strength to take decisive steps.

How to Move in a New Direction

We will explain it to you this way: while you are yet in a place or in any position in your life where you are yet unconscious, you will not have the means to move clearly in a new direction. We will say that again: if you are finding yourself in any spot, any position, job, any relationship, any place in your life, while you yet are holding things away from your awareness about that place, you will find it difficult, if not impossible, to take new steps within it. Only when you become supremely conscious, supremely aware of who and how you are within that situation will you have magnificent strength at your disposal to shift it. Either to shift yourself away from it or to shift the experience so that what was unconscious in you before is no longer needed to be continually pointed out to you. Do you see what we are suggesting?

So it is for you at this moment the highest calling to become supremely conscious within your marriage. Once it is so that you are bringing into your awareness all the parts of you that are unconscious, or that you are not aware of within the situation of your marriage, to the surface and you are seeing yourself clearly reflected there, then you will find shift. For then it is so that the situation has served you. Once you have seen or become fully aware of everything there is to be seen in terms of yourself and your essence there, then the energy to shift will become available. Which direction the shift will take place in is a decision occurring at a later stage. It is not in any way available to tell you how you will take a step forward once things are fully aware or conscious for you. It is a choice that is made universally. In other words it is not simply your conscious mind that will choose a new direction, it is something that will be colluded with by many, many other energies or inputs. So it is not known in advance. It is like you do not know when you call a board meeting how everybody will vote towards a certain decision. You do not know how each one will vote in advance, so we cannot suggest that.

Yet we can suggest that the supreme way to be within that space is to use it to become totally self-aware. Self-aware is not the same as self-judging, understand. Yet there are still unconscious patterns. One of them is discrimination as we have pointed out to you. There are still unconscious patterns, some of them good. Please understand we are not only suggesting that what you will find when you become self aware, is only that which you wish to change. No, we are simply calling for a supreme level of self-awareness as is befitting any master. So that what becomes available for you when things are not unconscious, is magnificent support, strength coming from a seemingly unknown place. Indeed the strength is already within you but it is wrapped up or held down by what is unconscious. Once you release all the unconscious patterns to your awareness, your entire being is free. You have energy to shift anything you wish to shift but not while you are yet sleeping. So that is the pivotal suggestion we will make regarding your marriage.

Abuse and Power

The card of the left of that, the one on your left is a very sweet, sweet card. Please turn it now. Thank you. Yes, we have spoken to you of this before, not so – of Power. We have suggested to you that power is a very crucial part of the dynamic or contract between the two of you. It is as we have suggested before, it is a sense of powerlessness that is associated with the behaviour of your husband at certain times. And, on the other hand, we have described you as tremendously powerful, particularly at this moment. It is very difficult for one who experiences himself as powerless to be around one that he experiences as powerful. Most of the abusive relationships in life are a result of that dynamic: one having an experience of powerlessness and sensing real power in the other. Why do you think so many slave drivers were the way they were with their slaves? There was, in those tribes that were slaves, an inner power. A power that was clear for all to see. And the one who thought he did not have it needed to use force to become forcefully more powerful than the one who he saw had power. It is part of what plays itself out within your space at this moment, the relationship with power between each of you. What is to be taken as a next step or a behavioural modification, if we could put it that way, is to take all actions that empower him. All that you can do, on even tiny details of your life, to empower him will be useful. More than that, there is not much to say.

Keeping the Peace vs. Speaking the Truth

The card on the right is our final suggestion to you regarding your situation at this time and it pertains only to you. The previous two have been indications of joint agreements if we could put it this way. The one on the right is solely applicable to you. Please turn it. Thank you. The card is Being Honest With Yourself. Yes, indeed already we have called for you to use the situation to bring up all unconscious patterns you are currently holding. That is one of the profound ways we are suggesting increased honesty with yourself. The other notion that we wish to bring or push across to you regarding your marriage by drawing this card is an element of self-reliance. We are questioning you here or pushing you here in the following way: we are asking you where it is that you are taking low position or putting yourself lowly in relation to your home, or to your husband or even to your child. Where is it that you are pretending that they are better or stronger? What we are seeing with you is that in order to sometimes keep the peace you are pretending that they are right in situations when deeply you know they are not. Do you see this? This is something we are calling you to correct. It is not more important to make the environment still, than to be truthful. It is not more important to still or smooth over the environment than to be truthful. You are not serving yourself or them by pretending they are right or accurate in a certain situation when deeply your sense is that they are not. It is no use handing over your own power to them. Empowering another is very different from giving them your own. So we are suggesting a differentiation in that way. Is that okay? Our love is so around you that for these moments, we do not choose to speak.
Thank you.


This reading has been slightly edited by Angela to facilitate easy reading and understanding.
© Angela Deutschmann


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