A Time of Integration
Group Reading
8 August 2007
What we have to give today, we give with deep and significant degrees of
joy and also heartfeltness, or feeling. We mean that we bring to light
something in relation to all of you that we have held back for some
years now. Not out of any sense of punishment, not even waiting until we
presumed you are ready, not at all. Waiting only until we hear from you
the bells. You know that human beings, in certain parts of the world,
have rituals or traditions of ringing bells to announce the beginning,
or start, of an event, calling people towards something of significance.
So when we say that we have waited for you to ‘ring the bells’, we mean
that we have waited for you to give the spiritual signal, as it were,
that you are ready or that you are on your way to this particular event.
That is what we call here you ‘ringing the bells’.
The same occurs, by the way, in connection with the conception and the
birth of a child. We don’t decide, as we have mentioned to you before,
when it is time. It is nonsense such a thing as “it’s all in God’s
timing”, not if you consider that it is something separate from you that
takes all the decisions about timing. You are related to those decisions
in the sense that all of you together ‘ring the bell’, which is that you
give us some form of invisible signal that you now are ready to give
permission to move towards or start to move towards a significant event
or ceremony.
The 'Ceremony' of Where We Are at The Moment
We have now just used a word that may be considered very interesting in
relation to what you and many others also at this time have been
experiencing. We have called your upheaval a 'ceremony'. We have
suggested that, just like human beings ring the bells to call or to
congregate you all to church or other forms of ceremony, you indeed gave
us the spiritual signal to allow in and to move forward the experiences
that many of you - certainly not just your family - have undergone at
this time. We heard the bells and so we opened the doors for what we
have considered or defined or called here a ceremony. Why would it be
that we would call that which you have been experiencing a ceremony?
After all, ceremonies are supposed to be quiet and sacred and gentle and
full of things spiritual and soft, and that is not at all how any of you
would describe what you have recently been undergoing. You would not
have felt that it was a spiritual experience, not at all. For many of
you, it has had just the opposite flavour - being intensely physical. It
was not soft, in many cases indeed you would have considered it the
opposite - harsh, rough, tough and so on. We have heard those words
being spoken. Neither was it gentle, oh no, again indeed sometimes
exactly the opposite - you are dealing with the very things in life that
are not gentle, the things that place you firmly in the physical, things
like, as you have well known here, experiences of bodily fluids and
bodily expulsions and all manner of medication. Others of you have been
raising the aspect of money again for yourselves. Again, something not
very gentle, but intensely physical, base even. So, we have used the
word ceremony when all the markers of what you have all been undergoing
are precisely the opposite of what you normally associate with ceremony!
That is perhaps already giving you a clue about this time or these
events. It is not just one event, it is not either that you are
completely out of it or over it either, so we do not like to call it
this ‘thing’ that happened or this ‘event’ because it is not that. It is
more seriously or more accurately called, an energy, an energy cloud if
you like, that manifests in a number of different events. What you might
begin to see from this series of events, or from this energetic cloud
within which you have been existing many, many of you now for some
weeks, is that you are given the challenge or the task or simply the
invitation to begin to become ceremonial about the very basest parts of
your own humanity. In other words, you are called to bring exactly the
same level of sacredness and light and awe that we have seen all of you
allow yourselves to rise up into in relation to spiritual or meditative
or transcendent or wisdom-like experiences, you are being called by your
own divinity to allow the same level of sacredness, light, softness, and
a sense of awe to be infused into the very basest parts of your
humanity, the parts that don’t seem at all spiritual or soft or kind or
sacred for that matter, or gentle. This is the way of the integrator.
The Impact of Integration
We have talked to many of you before about this aspect of experience or
this aspect of consciousness called integration. You are in the thick of
what might be called integrative energy. The invitations for integration
are coming from every aspect of your life. Some of you are reading the
signs or readings the times as being a call for honesty. Some of you,
quite rightfully, are noticing that no secrets are able to hold water
anymore that not even the body, let alone the mind can anymore hold
something inside it that is not serving it for very long. Things in that
degree are well changing but it is not specifically about honesty or
secrets. It is much more accurately about integration, about things that
need to be moved into the same space. In some ways this will have
physical effects and so many, many of the young children that are
experiencing quite severe degrees of illness at this time are doing the
only level of integration that is applicable to them and that is
physical integration. They are well integrated, as you know, most young
children, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. There is not a great
degree of adaptation to be done for them on those levels and so their
integration, what rocks their little worlds, is going to be usually
physical. Even those that have been experiencing the visitations from
other-worldly guests, the symptoms are primarily physical. They manifest
in crying or sleep deprivation. They are not primarily on the emotional
level. So these ones are creating for themselves opportunities, whether
through sickness or any other kind of experience, to allow a higher
degree of physical integration with their divinity. Is that
understandable?
Different Areas of Integration
And then the others of you: some will do a little bit of physical
integration, many of you, many of you will do emotional integration, a
few less will be working with mental integration and we can talk more on
these at a later stage. Then there will be some, those experiencing very
dark times at the moment, that you can know for sure are experiencing
and giving permission for spiritual integration as well, which is
something higher than just this particular identity. It is where they -
and you know many who are doing this - are integrating all parts of
themselves, not even only the self that you know as their human identity
in this life, but many, many, many other aspects of self. When there are
things being experienced in a human being’s life that have got no
explanation and that can be described as dark or very, very troubling
you can know that they are working on levels outside of purely this
identity that they embody at this time.
The Way We Question
And so very much that cloud or that energy we have talked about earlier
has manifested for many of you in these last times as giving you very
trying circumstances, although we are delighted to hear that some of you
are seeing that even within the struggle there are moments of deep
understanding, humour, grace light and so on. You are starting to change
your vocabulary around your experiences. We are delighted! We are
delighted that you are not coming forward to us with the question in
your minds, ‘why am I having such a difficult, dark, troubling time?’ We
would be able to answer that question but we would only be able to
answer it in a small way. If you came with a different question, if you
said, ‘why is it that we have given permission to experience what we
just have done’ without calling it one thing, one description, we would
be able to give you a much more full answer. You limit your answers by
the way you limit your questions and the way you limit your questions is
purely by the presumptions you have about your experiences. If you are
very honest with yourselves - and we are calling for this, we are
calling for it increasingly, increasingly - you will see that amongst
the shittest, most disgusting, difficult, sad, angry parts of your life
there are moments of amazing insight, amazing joy, lightheartedness,
funniness, and so on. It is not wrong to experience those kinds of
positive things in the middle of a situation that to the outside world
looks dramatic and terrifying and extremely sad, or the other way
around. Many of you are also coming to a very mature understanding that
in the middle of deep joy there is also loss and so on.
The Ceremony of Our Life
So it is a period that we will call integrative, or what is known as a call for integration, like ringing of the bells. That is very much what has occurred and the ceremony, the name of the ceremony that you are all passing through at the moment, is called the ceremony of integration. It doesn’t perhaps seem like a ceremony. You are not wearing robes; you are wearing your oldest clothes. You are not in a softly lit, holy space; you are in the most disgusting parts of your lives at the moment, most of you, whether emotionally whether physically and so on. As we have described, for many it will be in different and sometimes overlapping spheres. So it has not got the normal markers of ceremony but the challenge, the gift if you like, that is embodied within this particular time is to allow yourselves to lift your hearts the way you do in ceremonies while you are within this time that seems the very opposite of a ceremony. It is, as we have suggested, to allow you all to bless the very basest parts of yourselves and your lives the way you bless the very highest, for in truth there is no difference. And while you still continue to distinguish between highs and lows, good things and bad things, spiritual things and physical things, good times and dark times, while you yet buy into that differentiation you are denying yourself what is the opposite of the name you are giving something. In other words, if you call something a very sacred time, you are missing the baseness that can be enjoyed by you within that moment. For years and years and years, even centuries and centuries, humanity has done this. You have called some things pristine and pure and, because something is called pure you are not allowed to sully it or soil it or ruin it with things that are so-called impure, and that distinction has created a tremendous amount of suffering for all of you. Beyond suffering it has also created an immense amount of poverty, not only physical poverty although that abounds still in your world and the only reason poverty is in existence is as a result of separation at base, but more than physical poverty also poverty of experience because the richest you can be is when you have the fullness of a moment. This means that if you are in a very difficult, horrible, scathing conversation you can have the fullness also of insight or peace, and that, if you allow it, if you stop calling something by one name you might allow the experience of its opposite to be with you. And, if in the middle of a tremendously physical experience and a tremendously trying one, you are not labelling it as such, but simply experiencing what is there, you might also feel the sunlight shine on your back and warm you and give you comfort and give you an understanding that a moment in time is not only one thing but many things and the more variety of experience you can have the more fulfilled your souls and that is what is being called forward here.
Contextualising Insight (vs. Love)
There is nothing you need to conquer in these situations. We are not
calling for you to get on top of things as we have begun to teach in
different pockets around the world at this stage. We are not calling for
you to become masterful, if masterful means that you are not affected by
things and that you have strict control over your emotions or your
responses or what you allow and what you don’t allow, not at all. We are
not calling for control. We are not calling for achievement. We are not
calling for conquering. We are calling for love. That is all. Life is
calling for love. Your existence is calling for love. God is calling for
love, not any kind of spiritual achievement, not even insight. Many of
you mistake the meaning of things or the purpose of things to be to
allow you insight, not at all. Insight is just another step to call
forth love and it is not even a required step! Many of you at this
moment are very hung up on insight. That is what you want and if you can
get insight from your experiences you feel that you have done enough.
Insight is just a step, a step on a stepladder. It is not the aim. It is
just one rung of the ladder and you can skip it. There are ways to call
love out of a situation when you have no insight into it at all.
Consider all those that have come in with very differing amounts of
intellect than most of you that will ever listen to this have done. How
can insight be available to them and how can love be dependant on
insight if it is unavailable to them? So we also give that
understanding. So many of you seek to gain insight about what you are
experiencing, that is wise. It is a wonderful rung to step upon but
don’t stop there. Insight only exists to draw forth love where love was
not. We will say that again: insight only exists to draw forth love
where love was not.
Relax!
We have given you some understanding of the power of the time that you
are within. We are not asking you to get on top of this time. We are not
asking you to conquer it as we have suggested. We are asking you simply
to relax into it. That is the greatest suggestion we can bring to you at
this time. Instead of fighting it, instead of trying to control it by
understanding its meaning, getting its purpose from us if you like, we
are giving you a far more difficult and yet far more real understanding
of what to do and how to respond to circumstances like these. It is to
relax. Oh we know that sometimes it is very offensive to people in the
middle of drama and difficulty and pain to say relax, and yet it is the
advice that you will find most paramedics or most emergency personnel,
those who know that they are doing, giving. In the midst of the
greatest, rightful reason to panic, the smart one will call for
relaxation. You are much better equipped to respond wisely and well when
you are relaxed than when you are tense. So that is one of the key
responses we bring to you at this time is to seek, to seek that which
would truly relax you, but we are going to push it further than simply
suggesting you take time off to sleep or watch movies or drink or
whatever is typically understood to be relaxing. We are going to ask you
to become far more aware and far more responsible about your own
relaxation than you ever have been.
Please take so seriously your own relaxation that you devote a large
amount of time to it, but we are going to ask you to bring to your
experiences a brand new slate as it were or a brand new way of thinking
about relaxation. Nothing in existence has exactly the same effect on
all people as you well know by now. Nothing inherently is relaxing and
nothing is inherently not relaxing. For some, depending on where they
are, experiencing a massage is profoundly anxious if they are not happy
to be touched or if the touch isn’t the right pressure and not by the
right person and not the right time of day in the wrong kind of climate
and so on. A massage can be as unrelaxing as driving in the traffic and,
for that matter, driving in the traffic can be extremely relaxing for
certain people. So please do not buy into this society’s activities that
just label as a blanket term, 'this is relaxational, or this is
relaxing'.
We watch you very closely, for example, when you watch films. After some
films your energies are far more active, far more tense, far more
confused, than at the beginning of the film and that is not considered
at all relaxing. So take responsibility for your own relaxation and for
noticing what deeply relaxes you and what does not. And then allow
yourself to pursue activities that leave you relaxed, which is to say
you are calmer after the activity than before, you are more settled in
your body, in your emotions, in your thinking after the activity than
before and you feel slightly more peaceful after the activity than
before. Those things constitute being relaxed. So that is one way to
work well with the time that you are in at the moment. It is not
especially a good time for insight on some of these issues, which is why
it is not that forthcoming to many of you. There are many people that we
are hearing saying, ‘We don’t understand this. We don’t know why it has
come up again. We don’t understand where it comes from. We don’t know
what the purpose is.’ That is good and well. There is a time for insight
and it will come when you are in a place where you can absorb it. At the
moment you are not. It is not very useful in the emergency room to be
explaining to someone why they got burnt before you treat the burn and
that is exactly what is going on. So, it is useful at the moment just to
take care of the burn as it were, just to take care of what is
confronting you at the moment in every moment of your lives but to do so
in a relaxed manner, in other words to take care that you are allowing
your life to relax you as much as possible. It is only you, only you by
this stage that is in charge of your relaxation, nobody is going to do
it for you, and life is not going to do it on your behalf either. So we
bring an urgent request to you to take care of that element so that you
may face the burn, just to use our analogy - it is not a true
understanding at all of what is going on, but just to use our emergency
room analogy - so that you can take care of the burn at hand. After the
burn has been seen to and treated and the pain has been to some degree
released, then it is time to have a look at the insight aspect, in other
words what caused the burn, and how it could have been avoided or
prevented or what the purpose of it may be and so on and so on. And that
is a time that will come.
Persecution Energy
Yet also we have suggested that we are going to raise for you some
understandings that we have held back for years. We have given some of
those whittled into our message, like you whittle something into wood,
but those are there for the higher aspect of you and will be responded
to on that level and will give you comfort and knowledge on a level that
is beyond your intellects. We cannot give you, as we have already
suggested, deep insight about what you are going through right now. You
are not in a position to absorb it at all, and so when you are, we will
bring it and we will do it gladly. Yet we can also suggest something
that as we have said we have withheld for some time, and let us show you
an image or a picture by way of illustrating what it is we would like to
bring forward to you.
We are showing you, yourselves, and this will apply to every single pair
of ears that happens upon this reading and it will not only be yours. We
are showing you your own feet, strapped with frayed but tough rope, to a
wooden board. You are upside down. You are being hanged. You are being
hanged the other way around. We know that you all have the understanding
that when you are being hanged, or executed by hanging, you do so at the
neck, this is another way of doing it, you are being strung up by your
feet. It is also called hanging but it involves also beating and other
forms of physical pain and torture and all those who are listening to
this have got this embedded into their cells so listen carefully and
allow some of what we are saying to move through you, if not through
your minds then at the very least through your bodies. Many of you, your
bodies, are experiencing pain and resistance of some kind at this moment
in one form or another. Others of you are experiencing torture in the
mind; it depends on which area of this experience was most painful for
you but that pain is being raised again. It is no coincidence at all
that in the very culture in which you live at the moment there are
movements to suppress or to start to quell witches because that is what
is coming up again. We have no easy way of explaining this to you but
your past experiences are raised for you in cycles. Again, the purpose
of that is integration. The purpose of that is, instead of ignoring,
fighting, resisting the experiences that you have had, to bring them
into you, to embody them, to allow yourself to love them so that you may
integrate them. And what is being brought up for you at this moment is
persecution. What is being brought up for you is deep experiences of
being brandished, of being judged for who you are, for the decisions you
have made. You will find some of you experience that by getting judgment
directly, or indirectly, from other people in your life at the moment,
for others of you, you will feel it in your body you will have pains and
difficulties in areas of the body that you remember strain or pain in,
and there will be other kinds of symptoms depending on your individual
experiences of your persecution and that is what is coming up now,
persecution energy is coming up.
It is why you will see, again, evidence of this physically in your
society, people being persecuted for religious or spiritual ways of
practicing things, for sexuality and sexual orientation and so on. It is
the energy of persecution that is coming up again reminding those of you
that still have a response to this energy in one way or another to look
at that and to integrate it and to release some of the pain that you are
carrying. That is what is being brought up, all of you that hear this
reading or read this in transcription form at any stage, will know that
this applies to you, that you are carrying a response of some kind to
persecution. It is useful to bring that fully into your awareness, even
to spend some time analysing your dreams or even consciously dreaming.
It doesn’t matter if it feels like your imagination, it is that, but it
is not useless or crazy. Your imagination can only ever find what you
have known before by the way, and so what your imagination finds if you
sit down to imagine yourself being persecuted is very, very useful. It
doesn’t matter if those are the actual facts of what happened to you or
not, the feeling that you will embrace when you do that imagining of
being persecuted is what we are requesting for you to come to grips
with. You know by now that all of your experiences can be integrated by
you so that you use them well. Nothing in your life is wrong, or
shouldn’t have happened, or is evil necessarily, no. You give it its
meaning, and you have given your persecution a very poor meaning, all of
you, all of you that are hearing or reading this at this time have got
an issue, have got what we have previously called ‘a response’ to
persecution, you are carrying it. You have called it wrong and that is
why it is coming up again in different forms in your society as well,
and also in your own lives. It is time to integrate your persecution
which means to love it, to love it, not necessarily condone it, or go to
do it to somebody else, that is not what love means, but to give it its
place, to give it its place, to give it acceptance, to bring it in
instead of fighting it away, pushing it off and you will see, some of
you, that you are bringing it in, other people are bringing it closer
for you. You are seeing it around you. The energy of persecution is up
at the moment. It is high. It is in the air, if you like, and so those
of you that have got an issue, or a response, or a charge with
persecution this is what is coming up and it is an opportunity for you
to marry, to marry your persecution into your life. It is not a worse
part of your life than the life you have now and it is not better
either, it just is. And so we are asking you to bring it close to your
heart, to own the experiences of your persecution, to understand them,
to love them to accept them as much as you can and to start to bring
them into your experience and use them as creative fuel, that is what we
are saying you can turn your persecution into.
Your Persecution / Pain is Your Creative Fuel
There are many examples of this in the history of your world where
people who have been severely persecuted have used it as creative energy
to move them into a very productive or very remarkable life and to
create very amazing things. In fact there are many, many philosophies of
art and other forms of creativity that say that you cannot create in the
most wild and amazing way without some of that kind of anger or
loneliness or sadness or what we have called creative fuel. Many of you
that are listening to this now are feeling that you have gotten to what
might be called a plateau, that you know what it is like to rise up in
your life, in your consciousness, in your productivity, in the depth of
you but for some time you have been plateauing, you have been at the
same place, you haven’t experienced a great degree or a great surge of
energy or insight or a rise in consciousness or all the things that you
have done before. Many of you are lacking, well it is not true to say
you are lacking it per se, but you are not using what is there in terms
of the creative fuel. When you don’t want to engage with the horrible
parts of life or with what this persecution energy is raising for you,
you are also choosing not to have at your disposal your own creative
fuel. You will look at the lives of those people who have done
extraordinary things, whether in small ways or large, they have without
exception confronted their pain, looked at it, told the truth about it
and used that. It is not even a conscious process, don’t worry you don’t
have to know how to do it! But when you are prepared to look at what is
raised for you and engage as honestly and rawly with yourself as you
can, you get given, it is just like a match is lit, creative fuel,
something that spurs you on and those of you that feel like you haven’t
got enough energy to move forward or you don’t know where to move
forward or you are going round and round and round or you are just a
little bit stuck or on the plateau as we have called it, those of you
can know that you are not using your creative fuel, which mean that you
are not engaging with your pain. You are not opening up to yourself,
your experiences, past and present, and allowing yourself to integrate
those even though that is painful so that you get the benefit of the
creative juice that that gets going. Do you see the relevance to you?
The Significance of Teeth
One more thing. We are very aware of the teeth of all of you. You may know, those who have an understanding of fossils and bones and archaeology, that teeth can exist for a very long time if preserved in a certain way. And so that also says to you that your teeth hold a number, a number of patterns. It is commonly understood that the teeth symbolise wisdom, that is a very, very surface and simplistic way of understanding it. Your teeth hold many, many, many of your most ancient patterns and so have a look also at your relationship with your teeth, at what is going on in the family regarding teeth at any moment and that is about also again bringing into integration older, deeper very, very, very ancient patterns with who you are moving into or who you are becoming at the moment. That is another thing for all of you simply to take notice of at this time. Thank you.
This reading has been slightly edited by Angela to facilitate easy
reading and understanding.
© Angela Deutschmann
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