Angela Deutschmann

Experience Truth

How Comfortable is That Fence?

Many of the channellings I’ve done over the last few months have talked about the fact that, globally, lightworkers are having a tough time of it. Relationships are challenging or personal motivation is low or health issues are surfacing or work is super-demanding / non-existent / boring or family dynamics are increasingly uncomfortable.

Not that I needed a channelling to show me this! My own life is pushing me to the edge in regard to my relationship with money. I don’t ever remember being as unsure, pissed off, stretched and scared as this. What gets me even more is that I can’t believe, after all I’ve learnt and been exposed to, that this can still be an issue. How come I haven’t overcome this challenge yet, why haven’t I learnt to manifest properly, where is the physical evidence off all the awareness I’ve gained? These kinds of uncomfortable questions are regularly dancing in my mind at the moment.

And that is exactly the point, I’m told. Humanity is in the midst of what’s been called a ‘focused wave of choice’ where we are being strongly encouraged (well, no, let’s not use a euphemism – pushed bloody hard) to make very clear choices in line with our true desires. In other words, if you are sitting on the fence in regard to anything (health, relationships, work, money, self worth etc), the fence is growing barbs right under your bum at the moment.

Resisting this and trying to stay on the fence will cause more struggle and suffering. In other words keeping old, unserving habits, beliefs or relationships alive is going to manifest - more powerfully than ever - circumstances that we don’t like. But we’re welcome to carry on doing it! As always, spirit will never make choices on our behalf or tell us what to do. The other option is to take the scary step of getting off the fence and finally commit to all that we believe in and desire. This can mean completely different actions for different people. For some it means finally standing up for themselves in a relationship, or letting go of an addiction or adjusting their lifestyle to match their environmental concerns or moving into more meaningful work or prioritising family. For others it means extending self-trust to the area of money or finally acknowledging a buried dream. You’ll know where you need to take action because that will be the area pinching you at the moment!

I know that life is exceptionally challenging for most of us right now, even to the extent that some are making life and death decisions as you read this. Without undermining the grief and pressure we are feeling, may I suggest that we look at these challenges somewhat differently. If the fence never started to pinch and prick us, we’d have no reason to jump off it and would probably spend a lot more time with one foot (or one area of ourselves) in an enlightened space and the other foot (or areas of ourselves) in an old-energy space of fear, withdrawal, self-righteousness, for example. The stretch we are experiencing at the moment allows us to get off the fence and to choose nothing less than an integrated, authentic and exhilarating way forward, which is after all what we deserve and who we are.

October 2006

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