Newsletter
May 2008
In a couple of readings life has been described as far more of a
process of letting go [of what impedes our joy], than of acquiring; and
the spectacular Autumn trees give us a colourful reminder that this
process of letting go can be profoundly beautiful. A couple of us had a
chance to practice this in quite dramatic fashion at the recent group
reading in White River. The reading surprised us by turning into an
interactive process where the letting go was so powerful that many were
physically ill the day afterwards. Garrick has made the entire reading
available for download from my website and, if you have the guts
(literally!) to give up some ancient pain, I invite you to listen to it
when you have a quiet hour to yourself and can handle some physical
impact. The link to the download can be found on my home page. If you
right click on the “Interdimensional Party” link on the homepage it will
enable you to save that file.
Please note one important change: the Johannesburg group reading will be
on Sunday 25 May and no longer on Sunday 18 May. For details of other
events in Johannesburg as well as White River and Cape Town, please see
below. Our Spiritual Growth Clubs are flying (in many senses of the
word!). New groups start up in Jo’burg, Cape Town and White River in
July so if you’re interested please request more information, or an
application form, from us soon.
Much love to all of you
Angela
+27 (0) 83 743 0208
Personal Readings
Contact
Garrick to book personal readings in Johannesburg, Cape Town, White
River or long-distance.
Group Readings
Group readings are affordable, un-intimidating and great for newcomers
to channelling. They tend to bring out brand new information and will
focus on what is relevant to the particular group, and humanity in
general, at the time. Everyone who attends also gets the opportunity to
raise their own question and we end the evening with a chat and some
sharing about what the reading has raised.
Group Reading
Johannesburg
Date: Sunday 25 May 2008
Time: 4pm – 5pm
Venue: Northside Lodge, 31 Knox Street, Waverley.
Cost: R100.00pp
RSVP: Please contact
Garrick to book a spot
Accessing Your Inner Wisdom
If you have ever wondered how to read the signs in your life, how to
make sense of patterns that you see and how to get in touch with your
own internal guidance system, then this is a brilliant one-day workshop
for you.
Accessing Your Inner Wisdom will incorporate the techniques from my
previous channelling workshop, and I have added two completely new
sections (Body Wisdom and Everyday Wisdom) that are based on what I
learnt from the readings last year on this subject. The knowledge is
brand-new, the exercises are fun and you’ll have the chance to
investigate a real-life question that you want some insight on. I keep
the numbers small, so please contact
Garrick soon to book or for more information.
Accessing Your Inner Wisdom
Cape Town - NEW
Date: Saturday 14 June 2008
Time: 10am to 4pm
Venue: TBA
Cost: R450.00pp, includes refreshments and all materials. Please bring a
light lunch
RSVP:
Garrick or 084 460 8667
Places limited
Accessing Your Inner Wisdom
Johannesburg
Date: Sunday 6 July 2008
Time: 10am to 4pm
Venue: Northside Lodge, 31 Knox Street, Waverley
Cost: R450pp, includes refreshments and all materials. Please bring a
light lunch
RSVP:
Garrick or 084 460 8667
Places limited
Transformation Game Evening
Imagine gaining new personal insights, testing out your intuition and
receiving divine guidance – all while playing a board game! The
Transformation Game was designed at the renowned Findhorn Retreat and is
a wonderful way to play out your life. Garrick and I are offering
facilitated Transformation Game Evenings, which you can join as an
individual or as a group of 2, 3 or 4. It’s personal growth at its most
fun!
Next Game Evening
Johannesburg
Date: Tuesday 10 June 2007
Time: 7.30pm to 11pm
Venue: Northside Lodge, 31 Knox Street, Waverley
Cost: R120.00pp, includes refreshments
RSVP:
Garrick
8 places available
(Lots of fun to do as a group of friends!)
Travelling Light
Cape Town
Personal Sessions
Thursday 12 June to Monday 16 June 2008 (a public holiday)
Please reserve your personal session ASAP with
Garrick.
White River
Personal Sessions
Saturday 28 June and Monday 30 June 2008
Please reserve your personal session ASAP with
Garrick.
Bull’s Eye
May 2008
Birthing Pains
(Taken from my blog http://angeladeutschmann.wordpress.com)
As I sit here writing my first blog (yes, I know I’m about a million
years behind especially for someone who calls herself a writer) I do so
with tears streaming down my face and a desperate urge to go and do
anything else - ANYTHING ELSE - rather than face this blank screen
(darning socks, anyone?). Hence the title of this post, and the
story of tonight.
With our two boys asleep wonderfully early, and a whole expanse of quiet
time ahead, I set aside the night for reading The Passion Test (see
www.thepassiontest.com).
I have felt waves of gratitude all day. Brought on by ordinary
things - as always - the autumn trees, the skin of my babies, even just
the air today had me in the heady grip of gratitude. In states
like that, the air feels a little thicker around me (like it does in
readings) and I walk around with an inner smile as if I know a delicious
secret. It was a day like that. And the connection got
stronger when I started reading, so much so that I stopped, closed my
eyes and listened.
My sense was that I am getting ready, that I’m about to bloom (even
though it’s Autumn ;). I couldn’t shake my sense of anticipation,
of things having shifted inside steadily to get me here. I pulled
out my Bird Cards (beautiful, wonderful, new discovery ww.birdcards.net)
to get some insight on this excitement and how it would get channelled.
I merrily chose my first card, expecting one of the majestic birds, or
at least one associated with freedom, wealth and harvesting. I
pulled The Vulture.
Without even being aware of what The Vulture symbolises, I felt tears
prick my eyes. Something raw and real was here, that was clear.
I read the words already crying, learning that this bird transmutes
shame into love and that it was time to acknowledge parts of myself of
which I am ashamed. ’I don’t want to think about this, surely I’ve
already dealt with this stuff’, but my crying, which had escalated into
deep sobbing, showed otherwise.
I realised that I am ashamed of being a channel. I know that it’s
a phenomenal vocation; I know that I am blessed with a developed ability
(I don’t think of it as a gift) that lots of people would adore (and
probably use better) and I know that the insight I can produce is
astounding. But I am still ashamed of the ‘woo-woo’ stigma attached to
it and of what intelligent and religious acquaintances will think of my
career - I have specific people in mind and am quite sure I do them an
injustice but still, there they are in my mind, the big, scary, hairy
Council of Judges.
II am also ashamed of being thought of, or spoken about, as a
know-it-all. The thought fills me with dread that actually
produces nausea. As I sat on my bed looking at The Vulture, I felt
revulsion at those parts of myself. (Seeing as my curiosity at
language never switches off it seems, I had a delightful moment seeing
that reVULsion and VULture are linguistically related!). When I
imagined my inner Know-It-All self and got over how disgusting she was,
I asked her what she wanted, knowing that I wouldn’t have that shadow
side if it were not useful to me in some way. She very crossly
told me that if she were just given a chance to be heard, she would shut
up. Paradox being the signature of the divine, I totally got that
and promised that I would start to share more of what she knew.
When my heart settled and the snot and trane trickled off, I pulled the
next card. C’mon Blue Bird of Happiness! Instead, The
Shrike. Now you should know that The Shrike and I go way back.
If you have ever used the Bird Cards, you might know of the spread that
can be done to learn about your Life Path and Life Work. They are
two significant cards that are yours to work with for the rest of your
life (or at least that’s how they are to me). One of mine - Life
Path - is The Shrike, showing that my path involves telling the truth
even when that may be divisive, uncomfortable or unpopular. Like
Jesus (depicted in the card), my concern should be with the truth above
all else, regardless of my fear of being a know-it-all and that little
persecution complex I’ve got going. So the Shrike strikes again.
In facing up to my shame, owning who I am and expressing it, I will be
using truth, and sometimes as a sword. Interestingly, it’s our two
year old son’s birthday in two days and all he wants is a sword.
These two cards had painted a very clear and rich picture for me.
I’m not such a fan of pulling cards all the time and often think that we
give over our responsibility by doing so, but used consciously, they can
open up internal knowledge for us that goes way beyond what the actual
interpretation of the card might be. This is what had happened.
I had gone to the cards carrying my sense of blossoming and expecting to
have it confirmed, affirmed and amplified. That’s exactly what did
happen, but by exposing the shame I have still been carrying, not by
whispering sweet cheerleading songs at me.
When I turned over my final card, I could only express my love in
weeping (yes, again). The Goose is my Life Work card, that had
partnered with The Shrike in the spread I mentioned earlier, and here
she was again, speaking to me of the fact that my work would bring
spiritual and material wealth if I could conquer the huge inner demon I
was carrying. Both my permanent Life Path and Life Work cards had
come up again together, after The Vulture. The message spoke so
loudly that I had to get out of bed, come upstairs, ask my loving and
long-suffering husband to teach me how to blog, and start my journey
with words. I’m glad to share it with you.
To take this into your own life:
• Have you been struggling to start something? An exercise routine, a
search for a new job, a book?
• What is the pay-off, or value, you get from not doing it? Mine was
this: if I don’t write or become more public about my work I won’t have
to face up to being a channel and all that (I think) that label implies.
• Does your pay-off indicate some sort of shame you are carrying about
yourself?
• If you give your shame a personality (see the work of Debbie Ford),
what might it want to say to you?
• So how is your shame getting you closer to your Joy?
• Remember that birthing pains hold the promise of creation. Don’t numb
them or hate them, they reveal you.
© Angela Deutschmann
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