Newsletter
September 2008
Hi everyone
This month I feel compelled to publicly appreciate 3 people who have had
a big impact on my month: Sue Fuller-Good, an exceptional
physiotherapist whose mastery of the mind-body connection brought both
Garrick and me to tears in her sessions, Lisa Steingold who took just
one reading to convincingly, magically, turn her life into a series of
miracles and Garrick, whose belief in me I am still getting used to. You
can find out more about Sue
here, read Lisa’s
story below and, uh, Garrick is just for me ;)
In the spirit of appreciation, I am dedicating the 29 November as a Day of Re-cognition for who I have become, and I invite you to do the same. So many of you are intent on self-development (or you wouldn’t be reading this!) and that is an enlivening and wonderful way to live. Yet an excessive focus on improvement without a matching sense of appreciation for who you are right now, nothing more, creates grasping, fatigue, disillusionment. I’ve invited a few friends to a party on the 29th and the rule is that all we are allowed to do is appreciate ourselves and each other. Just one night with no thought of improvement. I wonder if I’ll manage?!
You can find below details of all my upcoming events in Johannesburg and White River, and I’ll also be in Cape Town very soon with sessions still available. The group reading below is the last one I did in Cape Town, and speaks of three interesting illusions: the illusion of individuality, the illusion of the body as being ‘less than’ and the illusion that we can live full lives without ‘coming to rest’ about our parents. The latest JHB group reading, which speaks inter alia about the value of assertion, is available as a free download on our site. See what you think, and join us for the next group session in your city.
Much love to all of you, and Happy Spring!
Angela
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Johannesburg
Personal Readings
Book now for appointments in September and October, select Saturdays are also available. Contact Garrick on +27844608667 or via email.
Group Reading
Group readings are affordable, un-intimidating and great for newcomers to channelling. They tend to bring out brand new information and will focus on what is relevant to that particular group, and humanity in general, at the time. Everyone who attends also gets the opportunity to raise their own question and we end the afternoon with a chat and some sharing about what the reading has raised. The transcription of the August group reading can be found at the end of this mail.
Sunday 28 September 2008
4pm – 5pm
Northside Lodge, 31 Knox Street, Waverley
R100.00pp
Please contact Garrick to book on +27844608667 or via
email.
Accessing Your Inner Wisdom Workshop
If you have ever wondered how to read the signs in your life, how to
make sense of patterns that you see and how to get in touch with your
own internal guidance system, then this is a brilliant one-day workshop
for you.
Accessing Your Inner Wisdom will incorporate the techniques from my
previous channelling workshop, and I have added two completely new
sections (Body Wisdom and Everyday Wisdom) that are based on what I
learnt from the readings last year on this subject. The knowledge is
brand-new, the exercises are fun and you’ll have the chance to
investigate a real-life question that you want some insight on. I keep
the numbers small, so please contact Garrick soon to book or for more
information.
Sunday 21 September 2008
10am to 4pm
Northside Lodge, 31 Knox Street, Waverley
R450.00pp
To book contact Garrick 084 460 8667 or via
email.
Transformation Game
The Transformation Game was designed at the renowned Findhorn Retreat and is a wonderful way to play out your life. You can find new perspectives, test out your intuition and receive divine feedback – all while playing a board game. Garrick and I offer facilitated Transformation Game Evenings by request for groups of 4 to 8 people. A lovely and lively evening for bookclubs, or groups of colleagues and friends.
Cape Town
Personal Readings
Thursday 2 October – Monday 6 October
If you would like a personal reading in this time, please contact
Garrick via
email or at +27844608667.
Group Reading
Sunday 5 October 2008
4pm – 5pm
R100.00pp
Please contact Garrick to book on 084 460 8667 or via
email.
Transformation Game
The Transformation Game was designed at the renowned Findhorn Retreat and is a wonderful way to play out your life. You can find new perspectives, test out your intuition and receive divine feedback – all while playing a board game. I offer facilitated Transformation Game Evenings by request for groups of 4 people. A lovely and lively evening for bookclubs, or groups of colleagues and friends.
White River
Personal Readings
Monday 13 and Tuesday 14 October 2008
If you would like a personal reading in this time, please contact
Garrick via
email or at +27844608667.
EMBODY
A workshop for those whose hearts are big enough to fall in love with
their bodies
Why do we have bodies?
How do our bodies serve us in our ‘higher’ purpose?
Why did you choose the body that you did?
How do you love an imperfect, ageing, disabled or diseased body?
How can you interpret the messages from your body?
Our bodies, like everything else, are communicators to us. They
communicate our divinity, in an immediate, uncomplicated manner. Our
bodies are as profound a source of wisdom to us as our minds and
spirits. They are faithfully attuned to our highest path, even though we
are ashamed of them, hate them and, more often that not, attempt to
control their expression.
"It is our bodies that are meant to
shape us, not us who are meant to shape our bodies"
Angela Deutschmann.
If you are brave enough to fully see and own your own body, compassionate enough to accept the bodies of others and wild enough to fall unconditionally in love with your body – forever - then I invite you to Embody.
17 – 19 October 2008
Boondocks Mountain Lodge, between Nelspruit and Barberton
R 3 000.00 includes full accommodation, delicious meals and exclusive
use of this magnificent lodge and labyrinth
Contact Garrick at +27844608667 or via
email.
The workshop will be kept very small and already has some attendants so please book soon. 25% deposit secures booking.
An afternoon with Angela…
By Lisa Steingold
We all have a life story. Our stories are intricate webs woven with
threads of love, heart ache, happiness, disappointment, joy, anger,
resentment, inspiration, connection, creativity, excitement and so much
more. I have throughout my life felt, however, as though I were the fly
caught in the trap instead of the master spinner.
The week before I went to see Angela I sat down one day and after a
lifetime quest for understanding, I surrendered. I was divorced, broke,
in a volatile work situation and an abusive relationship. I felt I had
failed in every aspect of my life. I felt I had failed not only myself
but all those around me. I sat on the floor of my bathroom and cried. I
cried even though there were no more tears left to spill. And when the
crying finally ceased I found myself praying. Unlike so many times
before when I had prayed for things to go right and be okay, that day I
prayed for wisdom, strength and courage.
I went to see Angela as an act of desperation. I had reached a point
where I could no longer make sense of anything. My heart had literally
ached everyday for more than 2 years. I sat across the table from Angela
and from the moment she spoke I cried. I cried not from the pain that
was so familiar but from the release of it all. I expected to be told
that everything would be fine and that X, Y or Z would occur in my life.
Instead I was given a deep and profound insight into why I had
experienced the people, places and situations in my life. The words that
were spoken were so wise and yet relevant to me that I did not for a
moment question it. I cried from realising that I was not being
punished, that my life had purpose even if I didn’t always understand it
and that I was a divine being.
I have been to many psychics and ‘spiritual workers’ in the hope that
someone would be able to give me the answers. The epiphany I had when
going to see Angela was that I realised that there are no answers from
the outside in, only the inside out. The reading gave me the permission
to finally accept myself and my life choices for what they were. Not
mistakes, not lessons but choices; choices which had allowed me to
deepen my experience of life.
I have to say that I would not have been able to change my web, had I
not been prepared to surrender. That said I also saw a therapist for a
number of years and I know that she had helped too, to get me to a place
of readiness and openness. In fact every situation and person I had
encountered had helped bring me to a place of readiness.
If I was not prepared for the reading, I was certainly unprepared for
the events that followed suit. I could not have imagined how an
afternoon with Angela could have such a profound impact on my daily
life. I am more grateful to her than I can express. I started changing
my thought patterns. Suddenly the pain in my heart lifted. I actually
felt light and accepted everything that was happening. All of a sudden
things I started doing went well, extremely well. Only a few months
later and I have a new job ahead of me, I have been able to set my
finances on the right track and am very much enjoying single life. I
feel fulfilled, “charged” and full of life.
The single biggest thing that I have taken away is that the knowledge
and wisdom shared from Angela’s reading is an invaluable tool with which
to “spin” my own life philosophy; a philosophy that supports me and
helps me navigate the rivers of life. I liken my life philosophy to a
sail; it changes with the wind but its support structure stays the same.
Funnily enough (the universe has a fabulous sense of humour) I was sent
a quote today by a dear friend of mine which most accurately describes
how I feel;
"The path to self discovery is a long and winding one. It is not for the
faint hearted. It takes more courage than you can ever imagine but to
find your inner self and be at peace with what you find is truly
enlightening."
Group Reading (Cape Town)
August 2008
Three Illusions
The Power of Collective Intent
If we may begin in this way, it would be to move fully (as we have permission to do so) into the room and to make it full. Perhaps it may sound strange to describe rooms as either being full or not full. Yet, all of you will have known the experience of walking into a place that either makes you feel good or for some reason does not. There is so much more between four walls than just furnishings. As we have permission to do so, and as we regularly receive permission to do so, we inhabit the room. If we may be as bold as to say that we are positioning this in physical terms, we are saying that physically we are inhabiting, or filling the room, and yet it’s not truly a physical direction or a physical experience at all. We have a tremendous amount to give today about what we are going to call illusions, and we will begin with those in a minute, but one illusion that we are indirectly referring to here, is what might be called the physicality of spirit. Nevertheless, though we have called it an illusion, nevertheless, we use words that will allow you to benefit. We are going to talk in a minute about what we have called illusions, and yet, while we describe it as an illusion that spirit occupies space in the same way you do - because that’s not so - we nevertheless use those words such as inhabiting, or filling, to give you sense of the power of you. It’s the power of your intentions, the power of what we prefer to call your permission, collectively, that has attracted into this room - it’s very much on the same basis as magnetic - the amount of love energy that allows us to describe it as being filled up. If you can do that, this number of people with collective intent, if you can fill such a room, what else can you do with collective intent? If you can manifest deep love energy that will linger and affect this room long after you have physically removed yourselves, then what else can you affect with collective intent?
(1) The Illusion of Individuality
Our first illusion that we wish to bring forward to you revolves around the distinction between individuality and collectiveness. While we recognize and respect that the human experience seems to be an individual one, after all you all have bodies and they all end somewhere, and they don’t melt into the body next door to you (or so it would seem), and after all each of you lives a life that is profoundly yours and after all each of you has a particular DNA composition that is uniquely yours. And while we respect all those symbols of individuality, we are also suggesting something that is not merely a conceptually interesting fact, not merely a metaphysical reality, but also the key - if we may be as stark as this - the key to allowing the evolution of the specie in a particular direction. It is the understanding that, at essence, you are not as individual as you may seem. We wouldn’t denounce your individuality. It is a part of the illusion of being human and it is a very vital part. It is quite necessary that you consider that you are an individual in order to play the game of human living, that’s what allows you choice firstly. It’s what allows you as a result of choice, focus, secondly. And it’s also what allows you an individual dream or expression of God as a result of choice, and then focus. And that is for us a very beautiful, even quintessential, part of being human. So individuality is a part of your experience. Yet we are asking something quite profound and even counter-intuitive perhaps to some. We are asking you to hold very seriously the notion that you are individual and that you are not individual; that you are individual and that you are a collective. There is such tremendous power in the collection of permission, or in the collection of intent that you are able, if you will see us on this, that you are able even to generate power from that, literal electrical power. There is much, much more and many more important things you can generate from collective intention, but we raise the aspect of actual power that things can plug into, that things can work off of, we raise that as just one example of an unexplored aspect of the collective.
Creation is a Group Process
Yes, we recognise that many tremendous progresses, if we can coin that phrase, in the world have occurred because of individual endeavours. Human beings are very much in the habit of crediting individuals for certain progresses in society, the invention of the printing press, or of the light bulb, or of a particular healing technique, or whatever it may be. There is a great tendency among human cultures, just about everywhere across the globe, to credit an individual with progression. Yes, very often an individual is the one that has the penny drop, or that has the aha moment, but let us give you this: a new concept, a new idea, a new invention, a new form of healing, for example, new insight, new information of any kind, has got to be, if we can use this word, downloaded from source, many, many, many times before it can be fully stretched into practical application. It is never only one human being that can access insight for the very first time on the planet, a brand new idea, or a new invention and put it into practical application. It is years of interplay between your higher selves and your conscious minds that results in a brand new idea having practical application at some stage. So, in actual fact, there are many involved, many involved in the invention of the light bulb, even in the writing of a book, or in the development of a technique. There are many who have thought that idea just a little bit before that implosion of it. There are many who have wondered if that could be so, all across the globe, before it actually become so. As we view experience on planet Earth, we watch these progressions as light. One person in a particular environment will have an idea; it will be a particular kind of light that is created in that moment. Another, because of that one, will have it a little bit more and so on, and so on, until it travels around, and until the grid - if we can refer to that which coordinates and regulates the flow of energy between the divine and the human - has become strong enough for enough of that energy to allow for one person to create something practical, tangible, from a thought. But it is actually an entire group that has been part of that process.
Join Forces!
And so the first illusion that we have great pleasure in raising today is the illusion of individualism. Yet we are not at all judging, or devaluing, individualism. As we have already said without individualism you would not have choice, nor focus, nor dreams, or expressions of your own divinity. Yet, if you which to begin to harness the power that the species has, if you wish to allow for a shorter time period between desiring something and manifesting it (and this is as much about individual desires as it is about collective desires), if you wish for more power in your practice, whatever that practise may be, become part of a collective that is also intending that. There are so many examples already in your culture of how it has worked. The ones that are ridding themselves of an addiction, when they do that collectively, when they are in a room such as this where others have the same intent, they have a far higher rate of success. And there are lots of other examples of it. We would suggest that you take that particular concept and you apply it to every single area of your life where you are wishing to manifest something more in your practice that you are not experiencing enough power to do. Join forces. Create groups around that with which you are working, even if it sounds a silly aspect around which to congregate, you can be sure that someone else shares a similar desire to you. Collectively you are more than the sum of your parts, and so we are raising that as we find it very deeply applicable to all in the room. There are certainly with all of you aspects where you are connected, where you are combining collective intents. We also want to raise or to invite you to join forces on the other areas of your life, especially the ones that are not manifesting as you wish, that are not managing perhaps to heal, or to become liberated, or to solidify in a particular direction. It will be so powerful for you and for all of humanity when the power of your collective intent is realised and worked with. Even aspects that seem essentially personal and here we raise notions such as healing - emotionally and physically - we are raising aspects such as finances, we raise aspects such as personal dreams. To this day most human beings still involve themselves in those things alone. They’re on those journeys mostly alone. We would even invite you to explode those areas of life that seem so intensely personal, so secretive even, so intimate, we would invite you to explode the potential of those aspects of life by allowing collective dreaming around those notions.
An Attachment to Individualism Dams up the Flow
There is a tremendous amount of expansion that has to occur in order to allow you to work collectively. The ego sits back when you are working on something collectively. Shame takes a back seat in order to allow you to work with something collectively. And so it is understandable that the power should be so strong when you work collectively, because of how much you have stepped up just to do so, just in order to work collectively, and this is out of respect for those of you that are here today. If you were not already somewhat giving permission for collective learning you would not have arrived at all. And we can only bring what you have given permission for such is our respect for you. And so to a degree already you have given permission for collective learning, and just that has required a stepping out of shame or embarrassment, out of a sense of needing to do it by myself, out of a particular direction of the mind or the ego. And so that is our first point that we raise here. The illusion of individuality has been the prime model of human existence. But it’s one of the models, it’s not the only. And the moment that you allow yourself fluidity between an individual experience of yourself and a collective experience of yourself you unlock what we might call here ‘dammed up flow’. Flow never ever doesn’t exist. Our answers to your prayers never don’t exist, just sometimes they are dammed up, or they are blocked, as result of a certain way of being that is not permitting them. One of the ways of being that dams up flow is an attachment to individualism, as opposed to a fluid dance between yourself as individual and yourself as collective. As always we never suggest that you believe us. We have no desire to convince you or persuade you of anything, we simply invite you to put it to the test. We invite you to take those areas of your live where you feel as if flow is not occurring as powerfully, or as easily as you might prefer, where you sense there might be some dammed up flow, and we invite you to allow yourself to create a collective around that, in whichever form is available, and then to watch how the energy changes, relaxes, opens, flows. And that is our first suggestion, or our first illusion, here.
(2) The Illusion that the Body is ‘Less Than’
We are deeply grateful to illusion, if we may also give that. Illusion is what allows you to exist as human beings after all. If you didn’t believe in the illusion that you were alone, limited to some degree, unaware, ageing, individual, and so on, if you didn’t have the strength of that illusion to work with, you would not be able to exist as a human being after all. So we are deeply grateful for the illusions that keep you in existence, in place. We never wish them away, and we never suggest that you sever them. All we are doing today is opening up, opening up the opposite, or opening up the other side of some illusions, allowing you purely to access more of who you are. And so the second illusion that we raise today is an illusion around the body. Oh we find - and we are very grateful to be able to give this today in deeper detail - that there is a very specific attitude or illusion around the body that is quite pervasive, especially amongst those who are involved in spiritual paths, or paths around enlightenment, or seeking. We often find that the body is debased in relation to the heart, or to the mind, or to the spirit. We often find, and it is quite subtle by now, by now it’s not an incredibly overt judgement, but we find even subtly a very powerful relationship to the body that suggests that it is a little less than. A little less than the emotions which you have become very aware off, a little less than awareness which also you have become very attached to, and certainly less than your divine selves, which are of course without physical bodies and the limitations and discomforts that they bring. As we have suggested, it is a subtle debasement, yet it has dramatic implications. We would love to suggest to you this. The very symbol of your humanness is your body. What other symbol of being human could there be more than a physical body? In other realms of existence, in other places across the universe there is thought; there are places that you could express yourselves that are purely thought based, that are only conceptual. There are other parts of the universe where everything exists, in fact, except the body. The physical body is what is the symbol, the essence, of being human, and so the relationship you have to your body is the relationship you have to your humanness, to your life per se. It’s the symbol of your humanness, and so the way you are with your body is the way you are with your life. There is no way around that. And so the illusion that we raise as our second one, is that the body is less than any of the other parts of you, including your divinity. Divinity is in such extraordinary awe of your body, that it is very often our first point of contact with you. How many times have you had goose bumps? How many times have you felt the hair rise on your neck? How many times have you spontaneously cried when you have come across truth? How many times has your mouth just lifted, without giving it the instruction to do so, when you have realised you are being touched in some way? It is a fallacy to suggest to you that your divinity communicates with you primarily through your mind, it does not. Our first point of contact with you is in fact your bodies. And so we are raising this particular notion in the room today so you may allow yourselves the privilege of falling in love with your own physicality, and of paying attention to it in a manner that delights you.
Choose What Your Body Likes
We are not at all of the opinion that a certain kind of diet needs to be followed. Once again those attitudes suggest that the body needs to be subjected to the mind, to awareness, to some kind of system. It is once again one of those subtle indications that the body is less than - that the body and its desires are less than the intelligence we have in terms of nutrition or exercise. That an individual body is less than what a researcher has intellectualised about what it should be doing, and should weigh and should look like. And so, when we suggest allowing yourselves the privilege of falling in love with your physically, we are not linked that to a suggestion at all to eat a certain way or to exercise in certain quantities in certain hours. We find it even quite comical that human beings allow themselves to attach their particular routine with their bodies to the intelligence that perhaps has come to someone completely different in another environment, and certainly with completely different physical structure! You would never allow your dreams to be dictated to in that way! You would never allow another one to tell you how it is to put yourself in the world, how you should express your dream. And yet many times you allow yourselves to believe what others tell you about your own bodies, and how you should be treating them and moving them. That is not to suggest that your particular body has no preference about how it likes to move or eat, or drink, or be touched. It certainly does have preferences. What we are suggesting is for you to become a friend of your body to such an extent so you can hear its preferences. That is all. It is not a case ever of subjecting your body to the external desire, either of your own mind or of the mind of anybody else. Of course you may well find a particular modality that someone else teaches, or a particular eating routine that someone else suggests, you may find that you like that very much. And that is wonderful. But the key is that you like it, it the key is that your body loves that, not that your body needs to be subjected to an externalised system of control.
Indulge in Your Body
We find it so ironic that especially the ones of you who seek wisdom, who love wisdom, are often the ones who are not hearing the body. And, as we suggested before, we often communicate with your bodies more than we communicate with your mind. That is where the phrases in your language come from such as ‘my gut feel is this’. It is in your gut, it is really in your gut. Not even just a symbol or a metaphor. And there are many other ways we communicate with your physical structure. And so the invitation we raise as our second suggestion here - it’s very applicable to all here - is to allow yourselves the indulgence - because many of you would think it is that – of spending time, energy, money on the body. Many of you would think it is very valid spending time, money and attention, or other kind of resources on your minds or your spiritual expansion, but in relation to spending that on the body you would find it an indulgence, possibly an act that is frivolous. And so, our second illusion, resulting in an invitation to you today, is the illusion that the body is in any way less than. The invitation that stems from that is to allow yourselves to indulge in your bodies. That means indulge in loving them, indulge in time spent focused on them, indulge in listening to them, in feeling them beautifully and touching them beautifully. Allow the body pleasure from what it smells, to what it tastes, to what it is allowed to touch and the temperature that it feels, to certain kinds of movement that it loves. That is our second suggestion here.
(3) The Illusion that Parental Relationships are Unimportant
The third notion that we want to raise has somewhat of a relationship to the first, but it’s quite particularly to do with a set of relationships that every single human being has, and it is the relationship between self and parents. Because of the very strong illusion that we mentioned first - that life is individual, that you are alone, that you make your way forward and you can do exactly what you like, and you can change your life, and you can have all that you like to have, and the many, many other teaching that are popular these days. Because of the illusion that you can do it all - and by yourself is the silent implication - there has also begun to creep into many communities, not all, but many communities, a sense of not needing the parental relationship to be healthy, or to be there at all sometimes. There is the idea that you can make your way forward in the world irrespective of what kind of connection you have or do not have with your parents. And we are finding that also an illusion that doesn’t necessarily serve you. Of course, on the one hand so it seems, that you could prove that to be true. Of course you have made your way in the world without the blessing of your parents, you have done very different things, your life is full of different values. You have stood up to them and you are still around and doing fine. And yes that is so. And that is the part that is the illusion and we respect it. The other side of it is from a metaphysical standpoint anyway, the strongest energy connections that you have are in line, or in touch with certain individuals. And always, without exception, your parents are two of the strongest energy connections that you have. Regardless of what kind of parents they were or what kind of child you were, or whether you are extremely different, or whether you are extremely close, those ties remain there. The selection you have made of mother and father is fundamentally significant to you and affects you far more than you realise. We have suggested in our first point that you are collective beings. One of the collectives that you are a part of is your biological family, whether that is a nice thought or not for some of you. We are not suggesting at this point at all that you have to be in, or that you have to have a harmonious, wonderful, mature, intimate, honest relationship with both of your parents, living or dead. That is not possible much of the time. That is part of the particular paradox involved in that energetic connection. Just because you are already an evolved version of them – necessarily - and the required generation gap that exists, it is very unlikely that any parents and children would relate on the kind of level that most of you would like to relate. And we are not holding that up as a fantasy, or as an ideal, or certainly not as a requirement. But what we would suggest is a requirement for a forward movement in your life is a sense of peace around both your mother and your father. Whether living or not.
Put Your Heart to Rest About Your Parents
To try to move forward – even in your individual worlds that may be worlds apart from theirs - carrying a sense of unrest about either of them is like trying to move forward with only one lung working. Half of what feeds you, half of what gives you the energy, the breath to keep going, is not there. We raise this again as an illusion, and we have twinned every illusion that we have raised with an invitation. And the invitation to you is to allow yourself to make peace with both of your parents. It is interestingly one of the Ten Commandments, isn’t it? Honour your mother and father. We are not putting it in those terms, because we are not suggesting that you allow your values to be subdued by theirs, that is one of the challenges of being a child, allowing yourself to honour your own values. So we are not using the words honour, but we are suggesting, inviting for you, to make peace with both of your parents. We are finding that as quite a strong block, or dammer-upper, if you like, of flow in quite a lot of people’s lives. Once you release them, once you make peace and allow forgiveness if that is what you feel you need to allow, or allow acceptance if that is what you need to allow, or let go of expectation, if that is what you need to do to be at peace, you will find that, we are going to call it a ‘strange trickle’, starts to happen. For some of you it has been years that this particular flow of energy through your life has been dammed up. It will feel strange in the beginning, it will feel like it would feel if you suddenly had two working lungs instead of one. It is a sensation that is not immediately comfortable to deal with. It can be a rush to the head even, and it can feel strange getting used to another lung. Yet, what you can accomplish with two lungs and double the amount of pure oxygen feeding you, is the same as you can accomplish having put your heart to rest around both of your parents.
We are very glad to have raised those three illusions in this room as we have found them of deep importance.
The remainder of this reading was individual questions, not appropriately shared here.
© Angela Deutschmann 2008
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